Monday, January 26, 2009 1/26/2009 10:42:00 PMY
finally its my turn to go NS. it seems fun but its tiring as well. just can't wait to book out every week. miss my family and friends. life is still the same. nth much as change. once in a while will feel emo but that is normal la. cos its me. the emo kid. everytime i blog means something is on my mind and bothering me. that is y i seldom blog. think its a good thing as it means i am doing fine.
yesterday was in church, and when on the way back was thinking about cny. this year on the 2nd day of cny i won't be around as i will be in camp. sad as my relatives r coming over to my place. and with that thought in my mind, i sunddenly remember her, because she was the first girl i brought home during cny and was also the first one my relatives met. guess sometimes some part of me is still thinking of her as i move on in my life. lets hope i will onli remember the happy memmories i have with her.
ps: some where, some place, some times, u will always find a way into my heart and mind.
yesterday was in church, and when on the way back was thinking about cny. this year on the 2nd day of cny i won't be around as i will be in camp. sad as my relatives r coming over to my place. and with that thought in my mind, i sunddenly remember her, because she was the first girl i brought home during cny and was also the first one my relatives met. guess sometimes some part of me is still thinking of her as i move on in my life. lets hope i will onli remember the happy memmories i have with her.
ps: some where, some place, some times, u will always find a way into my heart and mind.
Labels: walking alone under the moonlight
Saturday, October 04, 2008 10/04/2008 03:00:00 PMY
batam trip was fun. glad i went. but shit i still can't go one round on the wake board. but at least i improve at the end of the day. i manage to stand on it for quite a distance. cable ski was fun. had lots of fun falling into the water. haha. shikai and lip r the pros now. skilled man. fun, tiring and pain pretty much says it all. overall i enjoy the trip.
then back it was to singapore, had steam boat dinner at helen's house followed by house bunny with dfs people. about 20 of us went to watch. its was quite a funny show jus that maybe because i was too tired i didn't really laugh much.
batam trip again soon. and this time i will stand on the freaking board. lol.
candice i won't lose to u again. lol.
then back it was to singapore, had steam boat dinner at helen's house followed by house bunny with dfs people. about 20 of us went to watch. its was quite a funny show jus that maybe because i was too tired i didn't really laugh much.
batam trip again soon. and this time i will stand on the freaking board. lol.
candice i won't lose to u again. lol.
Labels: cable ski
Saturday, September 27, 2008 9/27/2008 01:18:00 AMY
it was great going to the F1 race. standing there as the car pass by. in a sec and its gone. fast fast fast. the sound of it roar like mad. nearly went deaf after watching. but the feeling was great. having F1 cars speed pass u. some places they were just about 3 meters away from u. the vibration they create when they zoom pass u. could really feel the power of the car. great experience. Thanks Lisi. haha.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 9/16/2008 02:06:00 AMY
sitting here all alone. its 2:06a.m.
had a great holiday. with the 34 gang. had lots of fun. laugh like mad. spinner was a killer. the whole trip was good. good company, good weather, great laughters. add up everything together, its a trip i will not forget and am really glad that i went.
made lots of badgets there. pic below.
had a great holiday. with the 34 gang. had lots of fun. laugh like mad. spinner was a killer. the whole trip was good. good company, good weather, great laughters. add up everything together, its a trip i will not forget and am really glad that i went.
made lots of badgets there. pic below.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008 7/29/2008 12:17:00 AMY
work work work. have been working like mad and it has been taking up alot of my time. which also means i have less time with my friends. leaving beach early alone every week sucks. cos of work i can't play till late. can't go for dinner with friends and can't ave supper with friends. but i asked for it so ya. now when ever i can i will meet with my friends. its this times when i feel happy and relax. jus chilling out cycling and dinner together. mahjong soon friends. and no more work for me on sat. so can stay at beach till late.
but one thing about work is that i get to make alot of new friends. my circle of friends is increasing and thats a good thing. have been working for almost 3 months. it has actually turn me into a more open person. as in i can talk to people easily even if its the first or second time i am meeting them. and i think its a good thing. this can help me when i first go into army. can make friends fast and also next time when i come out to work. love the job. but will try not to work too many shifts so that i will still have time for my friends.
friends r the most important people in life.
but one thing about work is that i get to make alot of new friends. my circle of friends is increasing and thats a good thing. have been working for almost 3 months. it has actually turn me into a more open person. as in i can talk to people easily even if its the first or second time i am meeting them. and i think its a good thing. this can help me when i first go into army. can make friends fast and also next time when i come out to work. love the job. but will try not to work too many shifts so that i will still have time for my friends.
friends r the most important people in life.
Sunday, July 13, 2008 7/13/2008 01:44:00 AMY
its been a while and i am back.
work has pretty much taken up all my time. but i kind of like work. dun really have to do much and the pay is good. and also i got to know alot of people and made lots of new friend. thats the happy part of my life now.
now comes the not so happy part.
wad i am feeling now can't be said as sad but at the same time not happy. jus confuse, blank out, dunno wad to do wad to say. a feeling i can't describe the feeling cos there is like no words to use for it. if u r close to me then u will noe wad is making me feel this way.
but i have learn from my past that i shal not do anything stupid and make things worst. i should jus leave it all alone and let nature take its course.
good night world. i'm going to catch back all my slp and pray that tml will be a better day.
work has pretty much taken up all my time. but i kind of like work. dun really have to do much and the pay is good. and also i got to know alot of people and made lots of new friend. thats the happy part of my life now.
now comes the not so happy part.
wad i am feeling now can't be said as sad but at the same time not happy. jus confuse, blank out, dunno wad to do wad to say. a feeling i can't describe the feeling cos there is like no words to use for it. if u r close to me then u will noe wad is making me feel this way.
but i have learn from my past that i shal not do anything stupid and make things worst. i should jus leave it all alone and let nature take its course.
good night world. i'm going to catch back all my slp and pray that tml will be a better day.
Friday, June 13, 2008 6/13/2008 01:48:00 AMY
volleyball can be said to be my everything. but it is also my failure.
Labels: LOUSY = FAILURE = ...
6/13/2008 01:42:00 AMY
Monday, June 02, 2008 6/02/2008 01:03:00 AMY
its been a while. life seem great. work has been fun. sch is pretty much the same. volleyball nth much. go whenever i feel like. but then had beach volleyball competition today. it was ok. win one lose one. think we did alright. and it was fun playing with bff. hope to play together soon again. think rip curl is coming up. wonder who wants to join with me. haha. love the beach love the sand.
love is a silly game we play. but its a game we love to play.
love is a silly game we play. but its a game we love to play.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008 5/14/2008 10:40:00 PMY
i dun need this bull shit from u. without volleyball its not really a big deal. i go army still can play. dun think that ur team is so good that i have to come for ur training and help u pick ball and let u dis-respect me. u noe wad. if u say i dun show u respect, ask urself first. did u show me respect in the first place. u once said u will change not to be so hot temper. u changed. for the worst. so u noe wad. fuck you coach. i no need this bull shit from u. so i guess u will start to find ur next target real soon cos i will be gone. i pity the next guy.
Monday, May 12, 2008 5/12/2008 05:17:00 PMY
maybe its just me, couldn't you believe
that everything is said and did, wasn't just deceiving
and the tears in your eye, and your calm hard face
makes me wish that i was never brought into this place
there is no one closer than your brothers.
that everything is said and did, wasn't just deceiving
and the tears in your eye, and your calm hard face
makes me wish that i was never brought into this place
there is no one closer than your brothers.
5/12/2008 03:45:00 PMY
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
Saturday, May 10, 2008 5/10/2008 11:56:00 PMY
FEEL LIKE JUST SCREAMING OUT LOUD.
so many things i just want to let out.
but i just can't find the right person to talk with.
SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM.
so many things i just want to let out.
but i just can't find the right person to talk with.
SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM.
5/10/2008 12:56:00 AMY
WIERD.
Thursday, May 01, 2008 5/01/2008 12:48:00 AMY
today as i was going home after lunch, i saw this guy with a t shirt that wrote this " don't cry because it is over. smile because it happened." some how the words hit me. maybe God is trying to tell me something. sometimes it hard to smile but things dun go back. time onli move forward and never back. so somethings r jus good to forget about and go on.
dunno how i am feeling now. but jus dun understand y do how u feel affect me. WIERD.
somethings r better left unspoken.
dunno how i am feeling now. but jus dun understand y do how u feel affect me. WIERD.
somethings r better left unspoken.
Sunday, April 27, 2008 4/27/2008 11:13:00 PMY
had a good time at my birthday. even thought was sad that some people could not make it. anyway took quite alot of pics. but can't seem to load it on friendster. so will put a few here.
group photo
doughnut. my beautiful friend. if u think she is fat then FUCK off. haha.
beauty and the 2 beast? no no. 2 hunks. lol. 3 best friends for life.
chris. my bestfriend.
BFF.
Rongna
Jass.( Happy Friend) gether gether
group photo
doughnut. my beautiful friend. if u think she is fat then FUCK off. haha.
beauty and the 2 beast? no no. 2 hunks. lol. 3 best friends for life.
chris. my bestfriend.
BFF.
Rongna
Jass.( Happy Friend) gether gether
Thursday, April 24, 2008 4/24/2008 10:22:00 PMY
listening to the song fall for you.
because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again
don't make me change my mind
i won't live to see another day
i swear its true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
a girl like u is impossible to find, losing u may have been my biggest regret for the 21 years of my life.
moving on.
let me do the impossible then. my birthday wish this year.
because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again
don't make me change my mind
i won't live to see another day
i swear its true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
a girl like u is impossible to find, losing u may have been my biggest regret for the 21 years of my life.
moving on.
let me do the impossible then. my birthday wish this year.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 4/15/2008 02:03:00 AMY
today celebrated zs and jos birthday. it was fun. skating and playing at play grounds. spinning on the ufo so real fun. pic will be on my friendster soon. look out for it.
story of a boy who cares.
a boy who feels sad when his friend is sad. he doesn't understand y. he wants to help his friend, to make his friend happy. to smile, to laugh, to really feel happy and that nth else really matters as long as u got a good friend by u. but he can't. he dunno how. he tried many ways. but it always seem that the happiness his friend gets is onli for a short while. he wants his friend to be happy, happy from the heart. nt jus a face of smile and laughter to cover up the sadness inside. will his friend understand wad he feels? will he be able to do wad seem like the impossible? he will not noe but he will keep trying even if it takes all his breath and strength. all he wants is to see his friend happy once again.
to noe wad happen in the end pls stay tune to jonbrok.blogspot.com.
ps: dunno when part 2 of the story will be told. so jus keep track.
u were there for me and i will be here for u.
story of a boy who cares.
a boy who feels sad when his friend is sad. he doesn't understand y. he wants to help his friend, to make his friend happy. to smile, to laugh, to really feel happy and that nth else really matters as long as u got a good friend by u. but he can't. he dunno how. he tried many ways. but it always seem that the happiness his friend gets is onli for a short while. he wants his friend to be happy, happy from the heart. nt jus a face of smile and laughter to cover up the sadness inside. will his friend understand wad he feels? will he be able to do wad seem like the impossible? he will not noe but he will keep trying even if it takes all his breath and strength. all he wants is to see his friend happy once again.
to noe wad happen in the end pls stay tune to jonbrok.blogspot.com.
ps: dunno when part 2 of the story will be told. so jus keep track.
u were there for me and i will be here for u.
Monday, April 07, 2008 4/07/2008 12:19:00 PMY
someone once told me that life r full of ups and down. when u r on ur way up, there will be chances that u will fall. be it how high u have climb and fall, be it how hard the impact was, u should still move on. upon hearing this, it make sense. but again, can everyone really move on.
here is wad i say. life is like a story book. as u read on things change, challenges comes our way, sad things happen. and if u decide not to read on u will not noe wad happens at the end. be it a happy ending or sad one. (most of the times happy). so life is jus like a book, if we dun move on, we will never noe wad the ending of the book will be. its always hard to read on a sad story, but think of it this way. as u read u cry, if u cry u will stop, then there will be parts where u laugh. so forget about the sad part in the book and look forward to the ending.
ps: to u who i really do care alot. i can understand how u feel. but like wad u once told me, dun be sad move on. he or she is not worth u thinking. if the person really loves u that much he or she will never let u get hurt and feel sad. so cheer up. call me if u need me. jus like u were there when i needed u.
here is wad i say. life is like a story book. as u read on things change, challenges comes our way, sad things happen. and if u decide not to read on u will not noe wad happens at the end. be it a happy ending or sad one. (most of the times happy). so life is jus like a book, if we dun move on, we will never noe wad the ending of the book will be. its always hard to read on a sad story, but think of it this way. as u read u cry, if u cry u will stop, then there will be parts where u laugh. so forget about the sad part in the book and look forward to the ending.
ps: to u who i really do care alot. i can understand how u feel. but like wad u once told me, dun be sad move on. he or she is not worth u thinking. if the person really loves u that much he or she will never let u get hurt and feel sad. so cheer up. call me if u need me. jus like u were there when i needed u.
Friday, March 28, 2008 3/28/2008 11:44:00 PMY
today the vb team went off to malaysia. was thinking if i would regret nt going. but turn out i had a great day today. first was my early tan and swim alone. got a great tan. then went to meet cheryl, javier and chek meng at ps. bought my vest for cousin wedding in JUNE. haha. then went to suntec to look for jos (sis) working there. bought another t shirt from roots. got discount. haha. then walk around. met chris. walk more. took many pics. then met edith for dinner. then home. too lazy to put pics. jus look out for it on my friendster. over all. a great day well spent.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008 3/26/2008 10:12:00 PMY
which part of EVERYONE is paying $70 do u not understand. the 12 people that r going are paying $70. change will be use for a dinner in malaysia. the trip is $63, everyone pay $70. so 70-63=7. $7*12=84. 84 sin dollars will be change to rm$193. rm$193 will be use to pay for a dinner in malaysia. is this simple enough for u to understand. so y can't u jus pay $70 like the rest of the team did and keep wanting to pay $63 only. u say u got no money but do u think u r the only one with that problem.
then u say i selfish. pls look at urself in the mirror before u say people. who is the one in the first place cos wan to go friend's chalet then dun care about the team and lie that u have something on so can't go malaysia. if i am selfish then wad r u. i took over ur place cos u were going chalet. and i do think that i am kind enough to do that while u onli think of urself and having fun at some chalet. so becos of ur chalet i took over u and paid for myself to go. but now u suddenly say u want to go then they kick me out. was f-ing pis already. and all i wan was to get my refund. but no. u had to say that its $63.
lets make it simple for u to understand. u go shopping and order something that cost $70. u paid the money but u didn't get ur thing. they tell u that the thing is out of stock. so u expect a refund of ur money. and how much should the refund be? Ans:$70. but no they onli intent to refund u $63. wtf will u do. of cos u scold the bloody sales person rite. cos where did my $7 went to when i didn't even get the thing i ordered. is this simple enough for u.
then u say i selfish. pls look at urself in the mirror before u say people. who is the one in the first place cos wan to go friend's chalet then dun care about the team and lie that u have something on so can't go malaysia. if i am selfish then wad r u. i took over ur place cos u were going chalet. and i do think that i am kind enough to do that while u onli think of urself and having fun at some chalet. so becos of ur chalet i took over u and paid for myself to go. but now u suddenly say u want to go then they kick me out. was f-ing pis already. and all i wan was to get my refund. but no. u had to say that its $63.
lets make it simple for u to understand. u go shopping and order something that cost $70. u paid the money but u didn't get ur thing. they tell u that the thing is out of stock. so u expect a refund of ur money. and how much should the refund be? Ans:$70. but no they onli intent to refund u $63. wtf will u do. of cos u scold the bloody sales person rite. cos where did my $7 went to when i didn't even get the thing i ordered. is this simple enough for u.
Labels: do u understand the words that r coming out of my mouth
Monday, March 24, 2008 3/24/2008 11:17:00 PMY
fuck u. i dun need this bull shit. first when someone cannot make it then ask me take over. kind enough i agree. then now then person can go u tell me i am not going already. what the fuck. who do u think i am. next time fucking make up ur mind before u get someone to get up so early to go down and do all the stuff and end up getting a call at the end of the day and say that all u did in the day was for nothing. so now if u can't get anyone to go is ur fucking problem. i dun give a fuck anymore.
Friday, March 21, 2008 3/21/2008 12:34:00 AMY
funny day i had. met doughnut and rong na for lunch as she had 3 hrs break. then had some alone time along the river again. walking back saw doughnut laughing like mad at the traffic light. was like wad is that crazy girl doing out of IMH. haha. then waited for them to end work and had dinner.
the main part of this post is about fuck feet. haha. pic below
oh and i almost forgot. they made me wore the RED SUSPENDERS. and rong na tried to smack me with it but hurt her own hand instead. lol.
jus another pic i took on my long emo walk along the singapore river
the main part of this post is about fuck feet. haha. pic below
oh and i almost forgot. they made me wore the RED SUSPENDERS. and rong na tried to smack me with it but hurt her own hand instead. lol.
jus another pic i took on my long emo walk along the singapore river
Thursday, March 20, 2008 3/20/2008 12:08:00 AMY
STORY TIME.
this is a story of a boy. who got his heart broken so many times, he did not noe wad happiness was. it seem like happiness is something in his head but it seems so block up by other things. till one day he will onli noe wad lonely means. to be alone walking up and down. watching as couples go by. chatting and laughing. showing off the love they have to everyone around.
one day the boy took a walk down singapore river. a place fill with couples. as he walk, memories came rushing into his head. emotion came rushing into his heart. but still he pick up his feet and walk. as he headed to the end he saw this shop that he had once been to with that special someone. but now it was empty. jus like his heart. empty and close. in his mind he thought, a shop close but another shop will come take its place. but will that every happen to his empty heart onli fill with sad memories. then he started to walk again. along the river he went. as the sunset, the wind picked up. so he decided to take a break. sitting there over looking the singapore river with wind blowling in his face, he close his eyes and pics of her came flying in like a slideshow on a powerpoint. as he open his eyes everything was still the same. alone sitting there. watching over the river as couples walk pass him, laughing happily and all. feeling the emptiness in him, he walk towards the river. a step forward and he was off the side. into the river he went with a splash. everything turn black. jus like his heart was. now all he could hear was his heart beat. loud and clear at first but slow fading away till it finally stop and he felt nth at all.
THE END
this is a story of a boy. who got his heart broken so many times, he did not noe wad happiness was. it seem like happiness is something in his head but it seems so block up by other things. till one day he will onli noe wad lonely means. to be alone walking up and down. watching as couples go by. chatting and laughing. showing off the love they have to everyone around.
one day the boy took a walk down singapore river. a place fill with couples. as he walk, memories came rushing into his head. emotion came rushing into his heart. but still he pick up his feet and walk. as he headed to the end he saw this shop that he had once been to with that special someone. but now it was empty. jus like his heart. empty and close. in his mind he thought, a shop close but another shop will come take its place. but will that every happen to his empty heart onli fill with sad memories. then he started to walk again. along the river he went. as the sunset, the wind picked up. so he decided to take a break. sitting there over looking the singapore river with wind blowling in his face, he close his eyes and pics of her came flying in like a slideshow on a powerpoint. as he open his eyes everything was still the same. alone sitting there. watching over the river as couples walk pass him, laughing happily and all. feeling the emptiness in him, he walk towards the river. a step forward and he was off the side. into the river he went with a splash. everything turn black. jus like his heart was. now all he could hear was his heart beat. loud and clear at first but slow fading away till it finally stop and he felt nth at all.
THE END
Thursday, March 13, 2008 3/13/2008 10:06:00 PMY
heyhey.
guess who is back to blog. the boring guy.
nth much have change since the last time.
made new friend. Jass. she is a pretty nice girl always laughing out loud.
lets see. i work at the it show as a delivery man. which got me pissed off when some f__ker jus dunno how to give way when they see u coming with all the goods. have to like bang into them before they f off.
current waiting for my second interview for the DFS job. hope to get in and work to kill time and earn money. big bucks i hope. soccer betting is coming back but i am still in control not letting it over take me. thats pretty much my life now.
been long since i played vb. and oh i can drive without P plate in 2 days time. YES. not like i got a car to drive but ya at least its been a year.
realise i haven't been telling story for a long time. maybe my next entrie. when i am more awake.
xoxo
guess who is back to blog. the boring guy.
nth much have change since the last time.
made new friend. Jass. she is a pretty nice girl always laughing out loud.
lets see. i work at the it show as a delivery man. which got me pissed off when some f__ker jus dunno how to give way when they see u coming with all the goods. have to like bang into them before they f off.
current waiting for my second interview for the DFS job. hope to get in and work to kill time and earn money. big bucks i hope. soccer betting is coming back but i am still in control not letting it over take me. thats pretty much my life now.
been long since i played vb. and oh i can drive without P plate in 2 days time. YES. not like i got a car to drive but ya at least its been a year.
realise i haven't been telling story for a long time. maybe my next entrie. when i am more awake.
xoxo
Saturday, March 01, 2008 3/01/2008 11:13:00 PMY
you look so beautiful to me.
when u r sitting there its hard for me to look away.
so i try to find the words that i could say.
no distance dosen't matter but u feel so far away
and i can't lie everytime u leave my heart turns grey
and i want to be back with u all over again today
cos i just can't take it
another day without u with me
its like a blade that cuts right trought me.
i can wait i can wait forever.
when u r there my heart stop beating when u r gone it won't stop bleeding.
i can wait i can wait forever
when u r sitting there its hard for me to look away.
so i try to find the words that i could say.
no distance dosen't matter but u feel so far away
and i can't lie everytime u leave my heart turns grey
and i want to be back with u all over again today
cos i just can't take it
another day without u with me
its like a blade that cuts right trought me.
i can wait i can wait forever.
when u r there my heart stop beating when u r gone it won't stop bleeding.
i can wait i can wait forever
Saturday, January 19, 2008 1/19/2008 09:24:00 PMY
i changed my skin. with alot of help from nigel. SIP now is so boring, cos there is nth much for us to do. project is actually done jus need to touch up a bit. have been spending alot of money due to shopping for birthday present and new year stuff. quite broke now. way way below my bank balance.
friends r real important in life. without my friends i dunno where i will be now. must thank doughnut for always listening to me make noise. haha.
last night went to watch movie. watch clover field. it will be a nice show if they would have film it better. the cam was like moving non stop and i really mean non stop. after the show i puke. so i paid $8 to puke. haven't been home for the night and the whole of today. going home soon. tired like mad. tml going shopping. hope i will be able to get all my new year stuff. thats about it all. signing out. will be back when i feel like it.
friends r real important in life. without my friends i dunno where i will be now. must thank doughnut for always listening to me make noise. haha.
last night went to watch movie. watch clover field. it will be a nice show if they would have film it better. the cam was like moving non stop and i really mean non stop. after the show i puke. so i paid $8 to puke. haven't been home for the night and the whole of today. going home soon. tired like mad. tml going shopping. hope i will be able to get all my new year stuff. thats about it all. signing out. will be back when i feel like it.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008 1/01/2008 10:53:00 PMY
lives goes on. it does not wait for u to get back up. it just move on.
here is to the start of 2008. here are some pic at one night stand. the rest can see it on friendster.
here is to the start of 2008. here are some pic at one night stand. the rest can see it on friendster.
1/01/2008 10:46:00 PMY
Sunday, December 23, 2007 12/23/2007 11:47:00 PMY
dinner with the tp vballers was great. lots if fun and lots of laughter. haha. poor hualun had to eat all that disgusting food. anyway after that they went to watch national treasure 2. did not join them as i have watched it already. so walk from somerset to lido to take bus. that lonely walk along orchard where it was pack with people really will set u thinking. how u wish that there was someone beside u to keep u company. thinking back with many if only in my mind. if only i had done that, if only i did not do that, if only i knew her better, if only i knew wad she was thinking. so ya. that pretty much how i felt after the wonderful dinner i had. guess sometimes being alone will really make u feel emo. haha. came home sat in front of the com and stare blankly into the bright screen. started to think about stuffs. i came to conclude that thinking too much is bad for ur brain and health. haha. off i go now. will see how this christmas turns out to be. how i wish christmas will come late. very late.
Monday, December 17, 2007 12/17/2007 10:08:00 PMY
"Famous Last Words"
Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...
And I know
There's nothing I can say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...
So many
Bright lights, they cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
'Cause I'm out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say
I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead
(How can I see, I see you lying) 'Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I'd never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead
'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead
'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
CONFUSE
Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...
And I know
There's nothing I can say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...
So many
Bright lights, they cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
'Cause I'm out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say
I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead
(How can I see, I see you lying) 'Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I'd never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead
'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead
'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
CONFUSE
Wednesday, December 05, 2007 12/05/2007 03:36:00 PMY
SIP.
stressing me out. project dead line coming soon. but so many touch up to do. problem with MAXs and Eon. nth seems to go according to plan. but either then sip, life has been the same. sch, gym, home and sch again. jus add a little mahjong here and there. pretty much spells my life rite now. christmas is coming, kind of hoping that it will not come so fast. but time really flys, jus last christmas i had the best christmas ever. and now its already another new christmas. wonder how it will turn out to be. having bbq with my sec sch friends on the eve. the christmas itself i dunno wad i am going to do. but after christmas will be sch for me with more sip project.
soon i will be 21. and army is waiting for me. jus finish medical check up last week and i am in PES A. which means i have to do full bmt. its going to be boring.
right now can't really say wad i am looking forward to. cos there really is nth much for me to look forward to. jus living my life everyday with the same old stuff. hope life gets better has it goes. a new start for the new year.
stressing me out. project dead line coming soon. but so many touch up to do. problem with MAXs and Eon. nth seems to go according to plan. but either then sip, life has been the same. sch, gym, home and sch again. jus add a little mahjong here and there. pretty much spells my life rite now. christmas is coming, kind of hoping that it will not come so fast. but time really flys, jus last christmas i had the best christmas ever. and now its already another new christmas. wonder how it will turn out to be. having bbq with my sec sch friends on the eve. the christmas itself i dunno wad i am going to do. but after christmas will be sch for me with more sip project.
soon i will be 21. and army is waiting for me. jus finish medical check up last week and i am in PES A. which means i have to do full bmt. its going to be boring.
right now can't really say wad i am looking forward to. cos there really is nth much for me to look forward to. jus living my life everyday with the same old stuff. hope life gets better has it goes. a new start for the new year.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007 9/19/2007 11:10:00 PMY
i guess i am still in the bangkok mood. shop in bangkok still not enough. haha. today i went to bugis street with best friend. and bought two pair of jeans and a watch. and for the jeans i use my bargain skills from bangkok and manage to get a discount. great i guess. at least now i finally have my black and white jeans. now its time to save. no money already. bread for breakfast and lunch then.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007 9/18/2007 01:22:00 AMY
back from bangkok. fun fun fun and more fun. really enjoyed myself. trip with friends r always fun. massage was super funny. was like laughing for an hour. shopping was great, shop till we drop. walk till ours legs nearly broke. so much things to say i dun even noe how to start. so to noe more can find me online can chat. photos should be up soon once i get them.
Thursday, September 13, 2007 9/13/2007 10:21:00 PMY
today was a funny day. went beach and spent some time with long time no see vincent and mark. then went to meet hui ming(BFF).hope u like the jelly beans. =) thats where all the funny things happen. first was the bus we miss, then was the crossing of road nearly getting knock down by carS. oh and the most funny thing was the photo taking in the lift. here r the photos. of me onli. haha.
Monday, September 10, 2007 9/10/2007 09:22:00 PMY
wad should a guy do when he thinks he might have a liking for someone. someone he think he should not like becos of some reason. wad should he do. should he ask a friend about it?
or should he seek help from a friend that noes him and the girl he has a liking for?
i wonder wad he will do....
or should he seek help from a friend that noes him and the girl he has a liking for?
i wonder wad he will do....
Wednesday, August 22, 2007 8/22/2007 12:19:00 AMY
this is yesterday's post. went out with XM cos her birthday was the day before and i thought of having dinner with her to like celebrate her birthday. i guess it was fun. cos i noe i had fun in toy-r-us. hope u had a great time and hope u like the little something i got. =)
this will be today's post. another dinner outing with my sec sch friends. cos it was one of my friends birthday. we had dinner and then K box. K box was great and i think i lost my voice. anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY Eileen. hope u had a great time.
this will be today's post. another dinner outing with my sec sch friends. cos it was one of my friends birthday. we had dinner and then K box. K box was great and i think i lost my voice. anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY Eileen. hope u had a great time.
Sunday, June 03, 2007 6/03/2007 02:14:00 AMY
STORY TIME.
a story about a boy. a boy who found love and lose it but found that friends are really a blessing.
the boy was so happy when he first thought that he found "the one" but when it ended he was like so sad. but then he realise that there r many people out there that care and that friends are a real blessing. so now this boy is living fine. jus living life the way it goes.
life is full of surprise u will never noe wad will come next. jus pray that u dun get bad surprise that much.
mum went to batam. so i am like super free. haha. last night went to watch movie cos it was hua lun's birthday. then went to his house to watch soccer. this morning went beach. played till super tired. then went hua lun's house again to play mahjong. lose money but its ok. its the time with ur friends that count. haha. oh any looking at friendster with ming ming was fun. haha. and i am not emo mo mo ok. haha.
emo mo mo mo mo. hahaha.
a story about a boy. a boy who found love and lose it but found that friends are really a blessing.
the boy was so happy when he first thought that he found "the one" but when it ended he was like so sad. but then he realise that there r many people out there that care and that friends are a real blessing. so now this boy is living fine. jus living life the way it goes.
life is full of surprise u will never noe wad will come next. jus pray that u dun get bad surprise that much.
mum went to batam. so i am like super free. haha. last night went to watch movie cos it was hua lun's birthday. then went to his house to watch soccer. this morning went beach. played till super tired. then went hua lun's house again to play mahjong. lose money but its ok. its the time with ur friends that count. haha. oh any looking at friendster with ming ming was fun. haha. and i am not emo mo mo ok. haha.
emo mo mo mo mo. hahaha.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007 5/29/2007 12:31:00 AMY
i am so surprise that doughnut has a blog. so i guess i should start to blog seen she say y never blog. nth much to blog about actually. oh i have a new found good friend. (AXM) haha and it so happens AXM is also on my laptop printed somewhere. anyway life went on after things happen. not that bad. but there r still times when u feel all alone by urself. thats when all ur good friends come in. lol. really thankful to all my friends around me. who listen to me nag and nag. haha.
jus watch finish campus superstar. it was super super funny. i was like laughing out so loud i think the whole of my hdb block can hear. haha. and also guess wad i cut my hair so short that it looks like i jus came out of army. bet pejavascript:void(0)
Publish Postople will get a shock in sch tml. heres a pic of my new hair style. signing out. jonbrok. really broke...
jus watch finish campus superstar. it was super super funny. i was like laughing out so loud i think the whole of my hdb block can hear. haha. and also guess wad i cut my hair so short that it looks like i jus came out of army. bet pejavascript:void(0)
Publish Postople will get a shock in sch tml. heres a pic of my new hair style. signing out. jonbrok. really broke...
Tuesday, May 22, 2007 5/22/2007 12:58:00 AMY
i just got to noe someone by the name of XM. and i guess i wan her to be my GF. dun get shock here. it means good friend. lol. she is a very bubbly girl. always sound so happy. its great talking to her cos it makes me feel happy. so thanks for being my friend.
Monday, May 21, 2007 5/21/2007 10:45:00 PMY
when u love someone, you want the best for her, you want her to be happy. if to let her go can make her happy then u should just let her go. even if you r hurting so bad it does not matter. cause you love her then you will do anything just for her to be happy.
TO LOVE IS TO LET GO.
Monday, May 07, 2007 5/07/2007 12:01:00 AMY
was kind of bored. nth much to do. so decided to blog. realise that my blog onli will be updated when sad things happen to me. or should i when i jus had a break up. sometimes it really sucks that my blog onli have all these. all my sad story. but when i am not sad i dun find anything i can blog about.
i am over it. i am ok. but am i really. i guess i learn from my good friend to some how hid things and jus live life the way it is. but will keeping the problem away solve it. i guess onli time will tell. sometimes i feel alright but there r still times i feel like shit. but at least i learn.
life have not been the same without u. seem to be so free. seem like i am not able to find things to do during the weekends. maybe i am too use in meeting u. got to change that.
have been watching prince of tennis. a great show. and i am going to learn how to play tennis. coach coach must teach me well. haha. i bet my coach dun even noe i got blog. so won't be able to read this. haha. but i really starting to get interested in tennis. it seem so fun. so i must learn then can play with my friends and of cos coach. haha.
u noe when u r feeling sad and all, thats when u realise that u do have many friends out there. and of cos a few good ones. really dunno wad to do without them. listening to me complain, talk shit and some other things. so i would like to use this time now to thank a few of my good friends.
thank you to
chris (best friend for life)
han lin (?)
ee ting (doughnut)
hui ming (BFF)
siew wen (wife)
grace (ttp)
ps: rip curl is next sat, lets work hard team doughnut. yao wei, ee ting and hui ming lets at least get somewhere far from here. and maybe next year we can play again. team doughnut will win.
i am over it. i am ok. but am i really. i guess i learn from my good friend to some how hid things and jus live life the way it is. but will keeping the problem away solve it. i guess onli time will tell. sometimes i feel alright but there r still times i feel like shit. but at least i learn.
life have not been the same without u. seem to be so free. seem like i am not able to find things to do during the weekends. maybe i am too use in meeting u. got to change that.
have been watching prince of tennis. a great show. and i am going to learn how to play tennis. coach coach must teach me well. haha. i bet my coach dun even noe i got blog. so won't be able to read this. haha. but i really starting to get interested in tennis. it seem so fun. so i must learn then can play with my friends and of cos coach. haha.
u noe when u r feeling sad and all, thats when u realise that u do have many friends out there. and of cos a few good ones. really dunno wad to do without them. listening to me complain, talk shit and some other things. so i would like to use this time now to thank a few of my good friends.
thank you to
chris (best friend for life)
han lin (?)
ee ting (doughnut)
hui ming (BFF)
siew wen (wife)
grace (ttp)
ps: rip curl is next sat, lets work hard team doughnut. yao wei, ee ting and hui ming lets at least get somewhere far from here. and maybe next year we can play again. team doughnut will win.
Sunday, April 29, 2007 4/29/2007 11:35:00 PMY
Janice Wei Lan - Never Let You Go Lyrics
The rain just never seems to bring the joy, I feel the same,
Everlasting pain of my loss remains,
My heart can't seem to learn to part,
The hold you left your mark,
All that I dreamed of now it seem so stark,
Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now, but give in,
*Chorus
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.
The way you left me on the train,
I don't know what to say,
I remember everything of that day,
I can't believe we'd never dance,
I just need one more chance,
To share the sunset,
Our one last romance,
Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go
this i a very nice song. kind of speaks wad is in my heart. but not all lar. maybe feeling emo once in a while is alright i guess. but in the end u have to be strong. happiness comes from yourself...
The rain just never seems to bring the joy, I feel the same,
Everlasting pain of my loss remains,
My heart can't seem to learn to part,
The hold you left your mark,
All that I dreamed of now it seem so stark,
Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now, but give in,
*Chorus
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.
The way you left me on the train,
I don't know what to say,
I remember everything of that day,
I can't believe we'd never dance,
I just need one more chance,
To share the sunset,
Our one last romance,
Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go
this i a very nice song. kind of speaks wad is in my heart. but not all lar. maybe feeling emo once in a while is alright i guess. but in the end u have to be strong. happiness comes from yourself...
Friday, March 16, 2007 3/16/2007 08:46:00 PMY
life is so funny. the way it changes like at the very next sec. one sec u can feel all happy, the next u r all sad and unhappy and confuse and moodless. then the next u can be all happy again.
life is full of surprise.
surprise one, i pass all my subjects for my exams.
surprise two, i pass my drving test. ( i can drive already)
surprise. surprise. surprise.
life is full of it so be prepared when it comes. u won't noe when it will hit u.
living a great life now, cos i have a very caring and good girlfriend.
and i hope one day i will have the chance to marry her. and have 2 kids with her. and live a happy life. maybe a life like a fairy tale.
love "niliep"
life is full of surprise.
surprise one, i pass all my subjects for my exams.
surprise two, i pass my drving test. ( i can drive already)
surprise. surprise. surprise.
life is full of it so be prepared when it comes. u won't noe when it will hit u.
living a great life now, cos i have a very caring and good girlfriend.
and i hope one day i will have the chance to marry her. and have 2 kids with her. and live a happy life. maybe a life like a fairy tale.
love "niliep"
Labels: surprise
Friday, March 09, 2007 3/09/2007 11:31:00 PMY
i am back to blog after a long long time. life have been great. infact it has never been better.
1st i have been attach to this very beautiful girl for one month and 20 days. she is not ur normal girl. but to me she is a princess. love you lot dear.
2nd i got a laptop. thanks to my beloved mum.
keeping my blog short if not some one will say too long. hah. that someone u should noe who u r ar. haha.
1st i have been attach to this very beautiful girl for one month and 20 days. she is not ur normal girl. but to me she is a princess. love you lot dear.
2nd i got a laptop. thanks to my beloved mum.
keeping my blog short if not some one will say too long. hah. that someone u should noe who u r ar. haha.
Thursday, November 09, 2006 11/09/2006 09:27:00 PMY
11/09/2006 09:17:00 PMY
back to blog. this is about yesterday. yesterday actually wanted to play ball. but then the court last min cannot use. so we went to have dinner at long john. there was hui ming, ee ting, bob and me. the 4 of us. then we made molly. and dunno y there the air con sopil i think cos quite hot. or maybe its cos of someone. haha.. this is wad i wanted to say about yesterday. will put up molly pic. then also got another pic. ee ting should noe wad i mean. haha. but i will not put it up. so ee ting dun worry. haha.
then now its about today. so pissed i tell u. i went to sch at 10 and there was no lab again cos the stupid teacher dunno go where. then nvm. i help grace go back shss take cd from mr wong. and i heard from my juniors that miss teo noe about jaymee thing. i was like. wad the hell she also noe. so i decided to go look for her even thought i noe she will scold me. then she did say somethings lar. but as always she gives good advise. everything should be ok lar. then wad piss me off again was the sch com. so f up. ................ thats it.
playing kong kong. and i level 5 already. ee ting i am catching up. haha.
Thursday, November 02, 2006 11/02/2006 11:42:00 AMY
i noe long time never blog. the post before this was actually sunday's post but blogger got problem so it onli came out today. this will be todays blog 2nd of nov. today early morning very pissed already. cos i set alarm wrong time woke up late. 10 class start 10 i still at home. then nvm so i took a taxi down to sch which cost me $4.30.. then guess wad. my bloody stupid lesson was cancel. i am so pissed i could kill the teacher. i noe someone will be thinking i am the evil guy again. haha. but i am jus pissed about it. make me waste money. i wan to say something. and that is i am NOT evil. ok. haha. y u say i am evil. haha. i am onli a small boy. this msg is to the person with sweet blood. haha. thats about it. dunno wad to blog also.
ps: see u soon the person with sweet blood. =)
ps: see u soon the person with sweet blood. =)
Sunday, October 29, 2006 10/29/2006 10:21:00 PMY
sorry SW i noe very long never blog u got nth to read then very sian rite. sch started already so have been quite busy cos i am still working. so got to manage studies and work at the same time. e maths 3 is super super hard. and my tut teacher suck to the max. he is so dame lazy lar. worst then me and i thought i was super lazy. anyway sch life is still boring.
today went out with hui ming for late lunch. which was also my 2nd lunch. it was fun. enjoied meself. hope she did too. but too bad she got to go back to work if not can spent more time with her. hope her work is ok and that she is not too cold. thats about it. tml match with np. hope can get to play. she will be there too. hehe. =)
ps: hope to have lunch with u again some other time or jus hang out. =)
today went out with hui ming for late lunch. which was also my 2nd lunch. it was fun. enjoied meself. hope she did too. but too bad she got to go back to work if not can spent more time with her. hope her work is ok and that she is not too cold. thats about it. tml match with np. hope can get to play. she will be there too. hehe. =)
ps: hope to have lunch with u again some other time or jus hang out. =)
10/29/2006 08:05:00 PMY
sorry SW i noe very long never blog u got nth to read then very sian rite. sch started already so have been quite busy cos i am still working. so got to manage studies and work at the same time. e maths 3 is super super hard. and my tut teacher suck to the max. he is so dame lazy lar. worst then me and i thought i was super lazy. anyway sch life is still boring.
today went out with hui ming for late lunch. which was also my 2nd lunch. it was fun. enjoied meself. hope she did too. but too bad she got to go back to work if not can spent more time with her. hope her work is ok and that she is not too cold. thats about it. tml match with np. hope can get to play. she will be there too. hehe. =)
ps: hope to have lunch with u again some other time or jus hang out. =)
today went out with hui ming for late lunch. which was also my 2nd lunch. it was fun. enjoied meself. hope she did too. but too bad she got to go back to work if not can spent more time with her. hope her work is ok and that she is not too cold. thats about it. tml match with np. hope can get to play. she will be there too. hehe. =)
ps: hope to have lunch with u again some other time or jus hang out. =)
10/29/2006 08:02:00 PMY
sorry SW i noe very long never blog u got nth to read then very sian rite. sch started already so have been quite busy cos i am still working. so got to manage studies and work at the same time. e maths 3 is super super hard. and my tut teacher suck to the max. he is so dame lazy lar. worst then me and i thought i was super lazy. anyway sch life is still boring.
today went out with hui ming for late lunch. which was also my 2nd lunch. it was fun. enjoied meself. hope she did too. but too bad she got to go back to work if not can spent more time with her. hope her work is ok and that she is not too cold. thats about it. tml match with np. hope can get to play. she will be there too. hehe. =)
ps: hope to have lunch with u again some other time or jus hang out. =)
today went out with hui ming for late lunch. which was also my 2nd lunch. it was fun. enjoied meself. hope she did too. but too bad she got to go back to work if not can spent more time with her. hope her work is ok and that she is not too cold. thats about it. tml match with np. hope can get to play. she will be there too. hehe. =)
ps: hope to have lunch with u again some other time or jus hang out. =)
10/29/2006 07:46:00 PMY
sorry SW i noe very long never blog u got nth to read then very sian rite. sch started already so have been quite busy cos i am still working. so got to manage studies and work at the same time. e maths 3 is super super hard. and my tut teacher suck to the max. he is so dame lazy lar. worst then me and i thought i was super lazy. anyway sch life is still boring.
today went out with hui ming for late lunch. which was also my 2nd lunch. it was fun. enjoied meself. hope she did too. but too bad she got to go back to work if not can spent more time with her. hope her work is ok and that she is not too cold. thats about it. tml match with np. hope can get to play. she will be there too. hehe. =)
ps: hope to have lunch with u again some other time or jus hang out. =)
today went out with hui ming for late lunch. which was also my 2nd lunch. it was fun. enjoied meself. hope she did too. but too bad she got to go back to work if not can spent more time with her. hope her work is ok and that she is not too cold. thats about it. tml match with np. hope can get to play. she will be there too. hehe. =)
ps: hope to have lunch with u again some other time or jus hang out. =)
Friday, October 20, 2006 10/20/2006 10:06:00 AMY
chicken little is dead. things turn out the way i knew it will. guess the truth still hurts after all. knowing that it will happen didn't really hurt. but now that it has happen and knowing it and seeing it still brings about the pain. but the pain will go away. so to baby monkey be HAPPY. smile ya. and to her bf u better treat her well cos she is worth it. baby monkey if anything happens i will be there. but i won't be there always like last time already. cos i can't too. love u baby monkey. and good bye chicken little. =)
ps: its time for mr lim to wake up and see the the real world. ur princess has made her choice and i guess u should respect it and let her go. it will be better for her. if u really love her let her go.
ps: its time for mr lim to wake up and see the the real world. ur princess has made her choice and i guess u should respect it and let her go. it will be better for her. if u really love her let her go.
Monday, October 16, 2006 10/16/2006 10:34:00 PMY
looking at my tag board, there seem to be a war going on in there. peolpe shooting people. people shooting me. but this is my blog and i will say wad i wan. and if u dun like it dun read it. no one is holding ur head to the com and asking u to read. but i also can't control wad people wan to do. so if u wan to shoot people in my tag go ahead then. can't stop anyone.
things are pretty much fine for me already. guess that letting go was not a bad idea after all. but i jus can't stand someone that talks bad things about u and act like normal in front of u. but i guess i dun really hate that person. i shall learn how to forgive. now life is getting to work and volleyball. love voleyball. will work hard for the coming matches. lets win this man. i wan a gold medal. haha.
ps: a friendly reminder to mr lim. guess its time for u to wake up. u said that u have change for the better. i dun think so. wad has gotten better. ur skills are going down. ur relationship with friends are also going the same way. can't u jus see the light. loving her does not mean u have to hold on. letting her go may be a way to show her u love her. cos i guess she will be happier that way. when she dun have to worry about how others feel. or scare that she will hurt anyone. if u really love her it time to let her go. this is jus a friendly reminder. i am not trying to say anything bad about u. u wan can listen dun wan then nvm. i have choosen to let go cos i noe she will be happier with me being there for her as a friend. she will find her happiness.
things are pretty much fine for me already. guess that letting go was not a bad idea after all. but i jus can't stand someone that talks bad things about u and act like normal in front of u. but i guess i dun really hate that person. i shall learn how to forgive. now life is getting to work and volleyball. love voleyball. will work hard for the coming matches. lets win this man. i wan a gold medal. haha.
ps: a friendly reminder to mr lim. guess its time for u to wake up. u said that u have change for the better. i dun think so. wad has gotten better. ur skills are going down. ur relationship with friends are also going the same way. can't u jus see the light. loving her does not mean u have to hold on. letting her go may be a way to show her u love her. cos i guess she will be happier that way. when she dun have to worry about how others feel. or scare that she will hurt anyone. if u really love her it time to let her go. this is jus a friendly reminder. i am not trying to say anything bad about u. u wan can listen dun wan then nvm. i have choosen to let go cos i noe she will be happier with me being there for her as a friend. she will find her happiness.
Saturday, October 14, 2006 10/14/2006 10:45:00 AMY
today is time for story telling again.
wad story should i say first. ok. let talk about the story about a stupid guy. there was this guy who believes in wad ever this girl said. because he like the girl. even when he noe that the girl lied to him he still listen to her out and try to believe. friends keep telling him that he is being a fool. but he refuse to listen. he wants to believe that the girl do not wan to lie to him. the girl however dunno that he noe. but guess this guy is smart in some way cos he seem to noe everything. and i really mean he noe everything. for example: holding hands, hugging,where the person is,etc.... this poor guy had to noe all this about the girl he likes and can't do anything. he can't say her cos he and her r nth. he have no right to be angry. he can onli be sad and feel hurt and maybe even jus cry at one corner by himself. but at least this guy noes something. he noes that he have friends around him that care. thats one thing he should be happy about. and from wad i noe. i guess this girl her really treats this guy as NOTHING. i really mean nothing. i dun think she even cares if this guy dies a not. compared to the other two person that like her, this guy = to 0.000000... which means nth. thats the end of the story about the guy that was stupid.
now a stroy about a girl that is too soft hearted. this girl ar. wad to say. maybe she too nice already. bf broke up with her but she still think for him. and wad she get in return. she gets to know that the guy say that she has ruined his life. i mean how can he say that. thats super unfair to her lar. in fact if u look at it the right way. he was the one that wan to break up/ so who is the one that cause all this. so to the guy if u wan to say she ruined ur life pls go think about it again that is if u have brains and think wad did she do to deserve wad u say. i guess is time for u to reflect too. she has been so good to u and this is wad u say to her. haiz. i dun understand how can a guy be like that. really throw the face of all guys. haiz. thats about it. the end of my second story.
now about me. haha. u asked me y i not working. i tell u y. i tue and thurs got work already. then sat i dun wan to work. even if i got no work on tue and thurs, i also will not work. firstly the reason i told u before already. the second is the pay quite little and must work alot. but the most important reason is i dun wan to be EXTRA. i noe its better off without me. or maybe if i go also nvm cos i am invisible wad. anyway this is how things has turn out. not the way i wan it. how long will it be like that i dunno. guess onli time tells.
ps: to the guy dun say anything bad about the girl ( ur ex ) cos she really did love u and by saying wad u did it still really hurts her. ( for the second story.)
to the girl. if u dunno wad is happening then nvm. cos i dun think u also wan to go and find out. then let it be. anyway the guy dun mean anything to u at all. (for 1st story)
ps: to all readers, all stories above are true. fact and not fiction. for more details pls tag my blog. (wanted to put my number but better not)so jus tag will do. if i noe u then maybe i will call u to let u noe the details if u wan to noe. or u can e mail me at chanjonathan@hotmail.com
take care my readers
wad story should i say first. ok. let talk about the story about a stupid guy. there was this guy who believes in wad ever this girl said. because he like the girl. even when he noe that the girl lied to him he still listen to her out and try to believe. friends keep telling him that he is being a fool. but he refuse to listen. he wants to believe that the girl do not wan to lie to him. the girl however dunno that he noe. but guess this guy is smart in some way cos he seem to noe everything. and i really mean he noe everything. for example: holding hands, hugging,where the person is,etc.... this poor guy had to noe all this about the girl he likes and can't do anything. he can't say her cos he and her r nth. he have no right to be angry. he can onli be sad and feel hurt and maybe even jus cry at one corner by himself. but at least this guy noes something. he noes that he have friends around him that care. thats one thing he should be happy about. and from wad i noe. i guess this girl her really treats this guy as NOTHING. i really mean nothing. i dun think she even cares if this guy dies a not. compared to the other two person that like her, this guy = to 0.000000... which means nth. thats the end of the story about the guy that was stupid.
now a stroy about a girl that is too soft hearted. this girl ar. wad to say. maybe she too nice already. bf broke up with her but she still think for him. and wad she get in return. she gets to know that the guy say that she has ruined his life. i mean how can he say that. thats super unfair to her lar. in fact if u look at it the right way. he was the one that wan to break up/ so who is the one that cause all this. so to the guy if u wan to say she ruined ur life pls go think about it again that is if u have brains and think wad did she do to deserve wad u say. i guess is time for u to reflect too. she has been so good to u and this is wad u say to her. haiz. i dun understand how can a guy be like that. really throw the face of all guys. haiz. thats about it. the end of my second story.
now about me. haha. u asked me y i not working. i tell u y. i tue and thurs got work already. then sat i dun wan to work. even if i got no work on tue and thurs, i also will not work. firstly the reason i told u before already. the second is the pay quite little and must work alot. but the most important reason is i dun wan to be EXTRA. i noe its better off without me. or maybe if i go also nvm cos i am invisible wad. anyway this is how things has turn out. not the way i wan it. how long will it be like that i dunno. guess onli time tells.
ps: to the guy dun say anything bad about the girl ( ur ex ) cos she really did love u and by saying wad u did it still really hurts her. ( for the second story.)
to the girl. if u dunno wad is happening then nvm. cos i dun think u also wan to go and find out. then let it be. anyway the guy dun mean anything to u at all. (for 1st story)
ps: to all readers, all stories above are true. fact and not fiction. for more details pls tag my blog. (wanted to put my number but better not)so jus tag will do. if i noe u then maybe i will call u to let u noe the details if u wan to noe. or u can e mail me at chanjonathan@hotmail.com
take care my readers
Thursday, October 12, 2006 10/12/2006 06:12:00 PMY
sorry to all my readers. but the zoo outing part 2 has been cancel due to some personal reason. i find that there isn't a point in putting up the pics anymore. but i am too lazy to delet the one i have put up so enjoy wad i have put up. life have been hard for me since i came back from malaysia. things r still the same. found out something today. a promise was made but broken now i feel that i dunno how to trust the person. is like i really wan to trust u. but u r not helping me at all. people keep telling me y do i still believe but i also dunno y. maybe cos when u love someone u will really be blind. guess today something open my eyes.
wad ever it is, it still hurts to noe that she broke the promise we had. will i ever talk to her again. i dunno.
ps:jus to let u noe i dun hate u. guess i should be use to the pain already. good bye.
wad ever it is, it still hurts to noe that she broke the promise we had. will i ever talk to her again. i dunno.
ps:jus to let u noe i dun hate u. guess i should be use to the pain already. good bye.
10/12/2006 11:00:00 AMY
zoo outing. part 1. this is onli half of the pic. but gtg now. so will update again soon. really had fun with u baby monkey. hope u did too.
10/12/2006 10:42:00 AMY
in love with each other.
nice couple.
everyone noe that this is a female lion. onli someone dunno.
snake can really be big. BIG.
i also dunno wad this is. haha.
still swimming
jus had a nice swim.
it was trying to be funny. 10/12/2006 10:32:00 AMY
one group of baby monkeys playing.
my baby monkey still more cute. and pretty too.
baby monkey. very cute. but my baby monkey cuter.
slp is all they noe how to do.
slping again. haiz. ZzZzZzZz...
baby hipo. it was cute there.
10/12/2006 10:14:00 AMY
funny looking fish. very big too.
this fish is big if u were to see it real life.
white tiger going for a swim.
white tiger.
lazy pig. onli noe how to slp.
white tiger
Tuesday, October 10, 2006 10/10/2006 01:24:00 PMY
the bowl of noodles that was not finish. reason is the person eating it. wad with this person. i wonder. he was hungry so cook. but turn out after he cooks even thought he is hungry but he still can't eat. maybe he was feeling down again. who noes. maybe onli the person himself noes. or maybe he dunno too. wad a funny day. thats the end of the story about the guy who did not finish his noodles.
today there will be 2 jobs. at same time. so i got to choose one. and of cos i will choose the one with higher pay. (but all u readers out there are wrong.) i will choose the one that has the person i wan to work with. because i dun wan anything i jus wan u to be by my side.
ps:baby monkey. =) ^v^ how do i live without you.
today there will be 2 jobs. at same time. so i got to choose one. and of cos i will choose the one with higher pay. (but all u readers out there are wrong.) i will choose the one that has the person i wan to work with. because i dun wan anything i jus wan u to be by my side.
ps:baby monkey. =) ^v^ how do i live without you.
Monday, October 09, 2006 10/09/2006 12:35:00 PMY
i noe u didn't mean to. i noe u r sorry. but i am still hurt. and its quite bad. i dunno y too. i keep telling myself its actually nth but i still get hurt. iguess i am still the fool that dun understand anything. can someone out there tell me y it has to hurt so much.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006 10/03/2006 11:05:00 AMY
i am the big fool u fooled. r u happy that u manage to lie to me. people keep telling me. but i choose to believe u. even if i noe u lied i choose to believe in wad u say. but u have done a great due of pain to me. u lie to me again and again. i guess this is where it ends. i dunno how to bring myself to believe u again. if u told me the truth it may not have hurt so much. but by lying to me and me finding it out myself now it hurts even more. do u noe how it feels to have a thousand of needles being pierce into ur heart. out and in again and again. let me tell u it does not feel good at all. all the pain inside hurts so much that u feel like just having some pain on the outside to take away the pain in ur heart. u did show care for me. but did u really care. i wonder have i been a fool all this while. like a idiot walking around the face of the earth.
Saturday, September 30, 2006 9/30/2006 09:53:00 PMY
i live a f_cked up life. just kill me.
Thursday, September 28, 2006 9/28/2006 09:50:00 PMY
chalet ended. turn out to be "hell of a chalet". cos it was pretty boring. nth much happen. guess we jus didn't plan things well enough. today after check out, sw came over to my place cos i got to change and all. then we went to town to meet ttp. went far east eat. till so full. then went shoping again. haven earn money start to buy things already. today bought a wallet and a watch. the watch was cheap. $55 onli. for the adidas watch that use to cost $95. then got the wallet at $52. wanted black but last one so i took the brown one. not that bad. then was all the way home. super tired. slept on the way back in the mrt. reach home ate dinner. sit down watch tv with my mum cos my mum say she more than 1 week never see me already. then now on com. suddenly feel quite down. maybe things are still bothering me. but things will be better cos i must remember to smile always. =) rite baby monkey.
ps: i am willing to do anything. anything for u and not asking anything in return. will make u happy with all that i have. when u need me i will be there. when u no need me i will be in one coner watching over u making sure that u r safe and once u need someone to be there i will come out and be there for. this is a promise i make to u. and i am also very sorry that i did a stupid thing. u should noe wad. the thing that grace hit me for and lecture me for. u should noe. but i promise u i will never do it again. if i ever do it again i will glue my mouth together. a promise i make to u. baby monkey i miss yoU.
ps: i am willing to do anything. anything for u and not asking anything in return. will make u happy with all that i have. when u need me i will be there. when u no need me i will be in one coner watching over u making sure that u r safe and once u need someone to be there i will come out and be there for. this is a promise i make to u. and i am also very sorry that i did a stupid thing. u should noe wad. the thing that grace hit me for and lecture me for. u should noe. but i promise u i will never do it again. if i ever do it again i will glue my mouth together. a promise i make to u. baby monkey i miss yoU.
Monday, September 25, 2006 9/25/2006 10:02:00 PMY
yesterday went to beach but did not play ball. no mood. then after that went to meet grace, sw to marina square to shop at quiksilver. wah so many things to buy but i no $$$. then guess wad aaron teo spent $330.30 in that shop. alot rite. and thats after discount lar.
today went out with ttp, sw, hl, aaron, yili. we went k box and went to buy jia hao present. but today quite moody cos of some reason. but am ok now. k bow could have been more fun if i wasn't feeling that bad. but over all its ok. now home. heard she is stress. hope she feels better. i should not be expecting much. i must remind myself that. thats about it.
today went out with ttp, sw, hl, aaron, yili. we went k box and went to buy jia hao present. but today quite moody cos of some reason. but am ok now. k bow could have been more fun if i wasn't feeling that bad. but over all its ok. now home. heard she is stress. hope she feels better. i should not be expecting much. i must remind myself that. thats about it.
Saturday, September 23, 2006 9/23/2006 08:12:00 PMY
jus got home from sas. feeling kind of moody. knowing that she is confuse. cos there r two guys. jus follow ur heart and go with wad u think will be the best out come. dun have to think that by doing so u will hurt someone. cos when there is love there will also be hurt near it. so jus follow in wad u believe and wad u want. thats all i am asking from u. cos never wan to see u moody and all because of this thing.
Thursday, September 21, 2006 9/21/2006 09:42:00 PMY
i may be going crazy soon.............................
i dun ask for anything. i dun expect much. all i wan is for u to be happy and that will be enough. i dun wan to see u sad. i dun wan to see u cry. i dun wan to see u worry. i dun wan to see u stress. all i wan is to see u happy and knowing that u r happy is good enough for me. all i can do now i jus to love u from a far. dun see me differently. dun treat me differently. cos i am still the chicken little u once know and will always be. jus remember no matter wad i will be here by ur side. i will jus be behind u. so if u ever fall i will be there to catch u. if u miss a step i will be there to hold u. from where i am i will protect u. so dun be sad but be happy. so that i can be happy too. =)
ps: i miss baby...
i dun ask for anything. i dun expect much. all i wan is for u to be happy and that will be enough. i dun wan to see u sad. i dun wan to see u cry. i dun wan to see u worry. i dun wan to see u stress. all i wan is to see u happy and knowing that u r happy is good enough for me. all i can do now i jus to love u from a far. dun see me differently. dun treat me differently. cos i am still the chicken little u once know and will always be. jus remember no matter wad i will be here by ur side. i will jus be behind u. so if u ever fall i will be there to catch u. if u miss a step i will be there to hold u. from where i am i will protect u. so dun be sad but be happy. so that i can be happy too. =)
ps: i miss baby...
Tuesday, September 19, 2006 9/19/2006 08:59:00 PMY
jus came home from floaters outing. it was fun. but there is something inside me i wan to say. that i feel. this is the first time i felt like this but she give me the feeling that i had for selina. and if anyone that noe me well noe that i like selina alot. so for me to have the same feeling for this girl really means alot to me. i dunno if its the right thing to do. but this is just how i feel and i can't stop myself from feeling this way. JAMIE I LIKE YOU. i guess u may noe this already already or zy might have tell u. and i noe that he likes u too. but this is jus how i feel. i really like you. have been thinking alot about it and decided that i should let u noe.
Monday, September 18, 2006 9/18/2006 02:23:00 PMY
really enjoied my trip. thanks baby monkey.
this looks funny. (baby monkey and chicken little)
on our way out to match. (baby monkey and chicken little)
match day number 1. (baby monkey and chicken little)
first night while playing. (baby monkey and chicken little)
at mac if i never remember wrong. (baby monkey and chicken little)
this looks funny. (baby monkey and chicken little)
on our way out to match. (baby monkey and chicken little)
match day number 1. (baby monkey and chicken little)
first night while playing. (baby monkey and chicken little)
at mac if i never remember wrong. (baby monkey and chicken little)
9/18/2006 02:21:00 PMY
baby slping in my beg.
9/18/2006 02:20:00 PMY
ah hao and me. the con men 9/18/2006 02:18:00 PMY
on the way to malaysia. 9/18/2006 11:04:00 AMY
this is baby!!!! 
baby monkey trying to cut my finger. haha. try harder. hehe.today is mon. just came back from malaysia trip. wad a week. first was 2 days camp followed by 4 days in malaysia. had lots of fun during both. but malaysia was much more fun i should say cos it was longer. very glad that i could bond with them so well. the floaters i mean. it was good bonding and hope we can go out on tue. our days were mainly following the girls team for their matchs and shopping. and of cos eating. the ramly burger was not good. sad. but the fun we had was. every night going over to rooms to play and all. laughing our heads off. playing stupid games to see who bath first and video it down to let the girls see. it was super funny man. hope zy upload the video on friendster.
oh and also thanks baby monkey for making me happy when i was sad and also for the sweet. baby monkey thanks for being there cos i always feel happy around u. and also thanks for trying to "rape" me ar. haha. thats about it. wan to noe more about the trip can tag me or sms me or call me.
ps: baby monkey. i miss baby.
Thursday, August 31, 2006 8/31/2006 09:14:00 PMY
i hurt my leg. the area below my keen. it hurts alot. and i scare i cannot play volleyball again. cos i can't jum as it is very very pain. then walk also abit pain. haiz. hope that it will be ok soon. cos i still wan to play volleyball. it is part of my life already. =(
Wednesday, August 02, 2006 8/02/2006 11:13:00 PMY
today we lose to tt1. but we did our best. we played well. this is the first time i am playing as a main 6 in the team. glad that i am given the chance to play. today coach say i play not bad. i am happy. but i noe there is still room for me to improve and to do better. so i will work hard. glad to be in tp team. having fun. there r ups and down but still enjoy it very much. tp team is the best. tml will be gym day. going to work out again. thats it.
and yes i got the song she's the one. will she be the one. i am still wondering. haha. hope so. and yes i will be patient. cos the bible says "love is patient" and so on. so i must be PATIENT.
and yes i got the song she's the one. will she be the one. i am still wondering. haha. hope so. and yes i will be patient. cos the bible says "love is patient" and so on. so i must be PATIENT.
Sunday, July 30, 2006 7/30/2006 08:43:00 PMY
last night was not very good. many things happen to a few people. dun wan to put names. for me last night could not slp cos keep thinking of someone. then this morning had volleyball match at amk sec sch. the match was ok. but wad i enjoy was the fellowship we had after that. went to eat then we all went to play cs. wad a game that we very long never play already. but it was fun. real fun. laughing and shouting like the whole shop is ours. haha. had a great day. thats it.
SA RANG HAE YO!!!!
SA RANG HAE YO!!!!
Monday, July 24, 2006 7/24/2006 09:14:00 PMY
wad should i do. i feel so mixed up. i dunno if she noe how i feels. but i do feel for her. and i do like her. but do she feel the same way for me. i dun wan to tell her yet cos i sacre that it will destroy our friendship. but seeing her buying a guy present make me feel sad. am i thinking too much or wad. but maybe she does not like me. how would i noe if i dun even dare to ask her. but now in my heart it seems so blur. nth is clear. be it in my studies or her. when will i get to see the light. looking on msn. no one to talk to about it. where have all my friends gone. i need them where r u all. is having feeling for her wrong. i dunno. id it the right thing for me to do. can someone pls tell me. i really need help.
Thursday, July 13, 2006 7/13/2006 10:00:00 PMY
today was another day at the gym. glad that i am starting to train. then the same after gym swim then when to eat at changi village. after that same thing again walk to changi beach played the same 3 people game. then came the part when i went to the place where i had memories. looking at the place sitting on the chair that i seat before. really bring back lots of memories. but its good to have memories. even if it is quite sad. but at least u were once there. u were once enjoying it. so i dun feel too sad. but to say that not sad at all is a lie lar. cos deep down still feel the sadness lar. but after so long learn to cover it up and hide the feelings. anyway i must thank all my bros. without them i will feel worst. so thanks to all. and also to my good friend that help me a lot. and was there for me when i was really down. guess friends are more reliable. so friends forever to my gf and all my friends and bros. bros 4ever ar. thats all.
signing out.
signing out.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006 7/12/2006 10:18:00 PMY
very long never blog already. so jus had a feeling to blog.
yesterday went to edwin's place to do gym and swim. it was good. and will be going tml again. after gym we went to changi village to eat then to changi beach to walk and talk about ghost story. then yao wei said that if at hunted place cannot walk in three if not the one in the mid will see ghost. dunno true a not but then they started to play this 3 person game trying to make one person in the mid. haha. everyone was running here and there. that was funny. seeing edwin so big size running here and there. haha.
anyway today after sch went back shss for a while. then stay in sch until 4+ then we went to watch Pirates Of The Carribean: Dead Man's Chest. it was nice and funny. jus that no ending. haha. so do catch it and wait for the part 3 to come out. cos its worth watching. thats about it.
ps: cailin i do blog. haha.
yesterday went to edwin's place to do gym and swim. it was good. and will be going tml again. after gym we went to changi village to eat then to changi beach to walk and talk about ghost story. then yao wei said that if at hunted place cannot walk in three if not the one in the mid will see ghost. dunno true a not but then they started to play this 3 person game trying to make one person in the mid. haha. everyone was running here and there. that was funny. seeing edwin so big size running here and there. haha.
anyway today after sch went back shss for a while. then stay in sch until 4+ then we went to watch Pirates Of The Carribean: Dead Man's Chest. it was nice and funny. jus that no ending. haha. so do catch it and wait for the part 3 to come out. cos its worth watching. thats about it.
ps: cailin i do blog. haha.
Saturday, June 03, 2006 6/03/2006 09:44:00 PMY
CHAMPION
6/03/2006 09:37:00 PMY
team tp
6/03/2006 09:28:00 PMY
team photo after match.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006 5/16/2006 10:41:00 PMY
sch was ok. onli that maths seem to get harder. but i will work hard on that. and also today my good friend came back from london. didn't really talk to her much. but she sure look different from last time. hope to talk to her again soon. anyway today pretty much did nth in sch. lesson was short lab was finish in one hour. and got burn by the dame resitor. tml there will be volleyball training. looking forward to it. and also zy got a laptop. make me feel like getting one. but where do i get the money. if i have a laptop i dun have to always stop using the com when my sis wans to slp. cos the com is in her room. i need a com of my own. like now i am waiting for some one to come online but i scare before the person come online i will be off cos my sis wan to slp. so having a com of ur own is good. quiz r coming soon. hope i can do it. and i will be going malaysia soon. the stupid sch dun wan to approve my loa. who cares about them i am still going. dun care. F the sch lar. it sucks. can't they give us a better life . anyway thats about it. trying to keep my blog updated. so that people who read will have something to read. thats all for now.
Monday, May 15, 2006 5/15/2006 09:24:00 PMY
i feel like bloging. thats funny. its been a long time seens i blog. many thing happen. sch and all. now sch is still ok but the new subject is killing me. but sch is still ok. maths is not that bad. and i am taking jap. the other day i had a long chat with my good friend in the library. which got me to think about the word love all over again. u dun have to go looking for it cos u won't find it but rather let it come and find u. one day u will just realise that hey the feeling i have for this person is so different. and not go and find a girl and have feeling for her cos u find her pretty or wad. i have a friend who wrote in his blog today that he walk in sch then like keep having the feeling to like look in class see if she is there. and hope she walk pass. to my that friend i got something to tell u. maybe u have found the feeling called love. or maybe it has found u. so a little advice for u. hope its helpful. follow ur heart. heart will bring u to love not ur head. cos the brain thinks too much. and the beauty of love is not about thinking to much but following one feeling and go for it.
but also u dun blindly into it lar. so to my friend hope this helps.
now about me. i jus realise that i have not let it all go yet. if u noe wad i mean. but really who on earth can. deep down inside i still feel the hurt sometimes. but its not that bad. but can't get it over. cos no matter how hard i try there will still be little left. maybe gf u will understand this better. i think u noe wad i mean. anyway that ends that topic dun wan to get into it.
the da vinci code. a book i am reading. today gf told me that it is even wrong to say or think or read that Jesus .... i will not say it cos its all wrong. yes i am reading the book and maybe watching the movie. but i noe that i still believe in the bible and i will not let this book shake my faith for God cos i noe that in my heart that God is real and i have faith in him and myself for wad i believe. the book is like something i like to use to ask myself question. its like some thing of testing ur faith in wad u believe. so i guess i do have faith here.
next up this came across my mind. maybe its cos mother's day was yesterday and all. i wan to tell the world that i have a very very very good mum. y??? cos she took care of me and my sis since young and she did it all by herself. people who noe me well noe y. and she work so hard for us to grow up. so when i really grow up into an adult and start to work i will never forget my mum. she is the best.
ok next was on msn jus... then had a msg from my friend in london and she surprise me by saying that she is coming back tml. and i was like really. r u serious. its been more than a year seen i saw her. i didn't even noe she left for overseas to study. but now she is back for dunno how long i am sure i will get to meet her and catch up with time and all. she will be back tml but i still have many friends overseas studying when will they be back. hope not too long. anyway thats about all i have to say for now. hope i will have the mood to blog again soon.
God bless all that read this blog. take care people...
but also u dun blindly into it lar. so to my friend hope this helps.
now about me. i jus realise that i have not let it all go yet. if u noe wad i mean. but really who on earth can. deep down inside i still feel the hurt sometimes. but its not that bad. but can't get it over. cos no matter how hard i try there will still be little left. maybe gf u will understand this better. i think u noe wad i mean. anyway that ends that topic dun wan to get into it.
the da vinci code. a book i am reading. today gf told me that it is even wrong to say or think or read that Jesus .... i will not say it cos its all wrong. yes i am reading the book and maybe watching the movie. but i noe that i still believe in the bible and i will not let this book shake my faith for God cos i noe that in my heart that God is real and i have faith in him and myself for wad i believe. the book is like something i like to use to ask myself question. its like some thing of testing ur faith in wad u believe. so i guess i do have faith here.
next up this came across my mind. maybe its cos mother's day was yesterday and all. i wan to tell the world that i have a very very very good mum. y??? cos she took care of me and my sis since young and she did it all by herself. people who noe me well noe y. and she work so hard for us to grow up. so when i really grow up into an adult and start to work i will never forget my mum. she is the best.
ok next was on msn jus... then had a msg from my friend in london and she surprise me by saying that she is coming back tml. and i was like really. r u serious. its been more than a year seen i saw her. i didn't even noe she left for overseas to study. but now she is back for dunno how long i am sure i will get to meet her and catch up with time and all. she will be back tml but i still have many friends overseas studying when will they be back. hope not too long. anyway thats about all i have to say for now. hope i will have the mood to blog again soon.
God bless all that read this blog. take care people...
Monday, April 10, 2006 4/10/2006 10:21:00 PMY
yup aaron i blog for u. haha. anyway today went out with my good friend. cos she need to do some study thing. then saw many people. and my coursin as well. and everyone thinks she is my girlfriend. yes she is my gf but gf= good friend. we are not together. can everyone get it right. if keep saying she my girlfriend then how am i going to find a girlfriend. haiz. anyway today write blog becos of something my gf said. and i would like to put it up here. listen up people but dun follow. never tell ur boss this... " go and die you asshole".... haha. can ask my gf wad it means if u noe who she is. haha. thats about it. and to let people noe... i am single. ok. i have no girlfriend. no i dun have. haha. hope to find the one soon. hehehehe....
Sunday, April 09, 2006 4/09/2006 09:22:00 PMY
sorry aaron but i am here to blog again. yes i dun blog much now. thats cos i dun really have many things to blog about. yesterday had beach vb comprtition. lose so today no need to go. lucky also cos i was sick today after the match. had fever. then whole day stay at home. anyway heard that my good friend is leaving tp. i am so sad. less one friend in tp when i already have very little friends.anyawy hope she do well in where ever she go. hope she dun forget me. haha. anyway i dun really noe wad to blog. but for aaron i blog today. so aaron is not i dun wan to blog. is i dunno wad to write. thats y. but anyway can't wait to watch u act on good friday. thats about it. update more when i have more to write.
Saturday, April 01, 2006 4/01/2006 09:53:00 PMY
i am back. the week was ok and got my pay already for the flyer job. so life have been rather boring now a days. theres nth to do. there no where to go. and theres no job for me. i need money badly but no job. then also failed my sup paper idiot man. and also the change course thing is like taking forever. when will i noe the result??? i wonder. haiz. really hope i can change lar. if not stay in my course so boring.
anyway today went to the sunset bay. been a while seens i went. didn't really play much but today went down to settle the team for next week beach volleyball com... i will be in one of the two teams tp is sending. hope to play well and hope we can go and train on thurs. and surprisingly i saw celine today at the beach. never see her there before. dun really noe her well. but i have a friend that told me she is very pretty. and guess wad i have never seen her at the beach before even thought i noe she do go there once in a while. then today first time see her. and my friend also saw her for the first time. he lucky ar. first time go can see already. haha. those who wan to noe who this guy friend of my is can ask me. haha. hope he dun kill me for this. cos he so call dun like blogers. guy blogers maybe. i thnk he think he very man. then think that guys that blog r gays. but sorry we r not. haha. anyway thats about it. and y has people use my tag board to talk to each other now ar. finf it very funny. but i am ok with it. willing to share my things. hehe. so feel free to tag me or even use it to talk to someone else.
by the way the song kiss goodbye is really nice. must thank chocolate for sending it to me. haha. k thats it.
p.s if su ann u read my blog.. pls let me noe when u coming back ya....
anyway today went to the sunset bay. been a while seens i went. didn't really play much but today went down to settle the team for next week beach volleyball com... i will be in one of the two teams tp is sending. hope to play well and hope we can go and train on thurs. and surprisingly i saw celine today at the beach. never see her there before. dun really noe her well. but i have a friend that told me she is very pretty. and guess wad i have never seen her at the beach before even thought i noe she do go there once in a while. then today first time see her. and my friend also saw her for the first time. he lucky ar. first time go can see already. haha. those who wan to noe who this guy friend of my is can ask me. haha. hope he dun kill me for this. cos he so call dun like blogers. guy blogers maybe. i thnk he think he very man. then think that guys that blog r gays. but sorry we r not. haha. anyway thats about it. and y has people use my tag board to talk to each other now ar. finf it very funny. but i am ok with it. willing to share my things. hehe. so feel free to tag me or even use it to talk to someone else.
by the way the song kiss goodbye is really nice. must thank chocolate for sending it to me. haha. k thats it.
p.s if su ann u read my blog.. pls let me noe when u coming back ya....
Monday, March 27, 2006 3/27/2006 01:23:00 PMY
heyheyhey....
today is monday. yes no more work. work was tiring. all 3 days at cityhall. lucky for me i guess. cos can slack. haha. slack quite alot. people take 5 mins break i take 2 and a half hours break. haha. first two day work with francis. then last day work with hua lun. some people from the work place are like shit. but most of them were ok. oh and on the third day i made a new friend at cityhall. thats about all about work. then there was sat. when down for chris birthday party. and got mango cake in my ear. rush all the way down after work to get cake in my ear. wth rite. haha. but it was her brithday lar. so let her. glad she like the card cos i dun think she like the present. haha. anyway holidays are long. so bored. nth to do. hope can get a few more part time jobs. haha. badly in need of money now. cos wan to buy the nike polo tee. its pink haha. but nice. and also i wan to get a hp. so i have to save money but i am broke. how? so must work. haha. thats about it. end here.
today is monday. yes no more work. work was tiring. all 3 days at cityhall. lucky for me i guess. cos can slack. haha. slack quite alot. people take 5 mins break i take 2 and a half hours break. haha. first two day work with francis. then last day work with hua lun. some people from the work place are like shit. but most of them were ok. oh and on the third day i made a new friend at cityhall. thats about all about work. then there was sat. when down for chris birthday party. and got mango cake in my ear. rush all the way down after work to get cake in my ear. wth rite. haha. but it was her brithday lar. so let her. glad she like the card cos i dun think she like the present. haha. anyway holidays are long. so bored. nth to do. hope can get a few more part time jobs. haha. badly in need of money now. cos wan to buy the nike polo tee. its pink haha. but nice. and also i wan to get a hp. so i have to save money but i am broke. how? so must work. haha. thats about it. end here.
Sunday, March 19, 2006 3/19/2006 08:16:00 PMY
today was to go chc. but i over slept. too tired. then woke up late. had lunch and met edwin. went to take hp from hwee koon. but the phone got pin code. and we dunno wad it is. so i can't use. after that i went to town with edwin cos he wan to buy cloths. in the end he onli bought a jean. i manage to buy for chris her present. dunno she like it a not. i hope so. sorry ar no money. actually wanted to get u a jacket from top shop but i am quite broke now. as u noe y. so hope u like it. thats about it.
Saturday, March 18, 2006 3/18/2006 07:26:00 PMY
i am back after one month to write my blog.
thanks to all that read my blog. my life has been quite better already. forgeting things. things that i should not remember. so thats good for me. heard from su ann that she is coming back. so hope to see her soon. my exams result r out and i fail one. but i pass my retake sub which is maths. thanks to some help from irene. so i am going to treat her lunch. today one very sad thing happen to me. and that is i lost my hp again. AGAIN. wad the F... am i doing. losing my hp so many times. i must be stupid man. anyway wads gone is gone. be it hp or other things or other people. was at edwin house today. went for swimming. and sun tan. i now got sun burn. but today very happy. swim 70 laps. feel good about it.
now i have to save money to but a hp.. i think i will buy the one that i really like. and that is v3i. hope can get it. anyway i got a $100 discount for starhub phone. thats about it. and to aaron. u said my blog the skin very wad. and the music very wad also. so i change my skin and there is no song. see if u like it. tag me ya.
thanks to all that read my blog. my life has been quite better already. forgeting things. things that i should not remember. so thats good for me. heard from su ann that she is coming back. so hope to see her soon. my exams result r out and i fail one. but i pass my retake sub which is maths. thanks to some help from irene. so i am going to treat her lunch. today one very sad thing happen to me. and that is i lost my hp again. AGAIN. wad the F... am i doing. losing my hp so many times. i must be stupid man. anyway wads gone is gone. be it hp or other things or other people. was at edwin house today. went for swimming. and sun tan. i now got sun burn. but today very happy. swim 70 laps. feel good about it.
now i have to save money to but a hp.. i think i will buy the one that i really like. and that is v3i. hope can get it. anyway i got a $100 discount for starhub phone. thats about it. and to aaron. u said my blog the skin very wad. and the music very wad also. so i change my skin and there is no song. see if u like it. tag me ya.
Sunday, February 19, 2006 2/19/2006 02:49:00 AMY
hi to who ever reads my blog. i think no one lar. the last time i blog was like ages ago. lets start with where i am now and doing wad. i am at my friend's placce at amk studying at 3 am in the morning. can't believe that i am studying this hard. or should i say "hard". so now taking a break from the books. thats the end of part one.
part two. my life so far. how have i been getting along. i think i am getting along ok i guess. not too sure onli some times will have the shit feeling. sometimes will be emo. but guess its onli for sometime. now everyday study for exam if not go out wif edwin they all. valentines day was yet again a lonely day. even thought i had gf before, i have never had one during valentine's day. all happen to break up with me or i break up with them before valentine's day come. but valentine's day is jus a day lar. nth much about it. how i spent my valentine's day this year. when to buy present for someone. but realise that she won't accept it. so kind of like wasted my money. but anyway the thing is that i tried. thats wad counts. then went to my friend's condo for tuition. she was going to teach me maths. but when i reach the condo outside receive a msg from her say she not feeling well so cannot teach me. i dun blame her cos is not she wan to put me airplane. is cos she sick. so i had nth to do. so i called aaron. and he was nice enough to let me go his house. when reach his house his family was like waiting for me to eat lunch. i was so paiseh. but his family was very nice and funny people. his grandma is really funny. and i found out she like to watch korean shows like me. so i stayed in aaron's house and watch jay chou vcd. then went to meet edwin and zong. then zong go sch. so i and edwin go town cos he wan to buy birthday present. shop in town till about 6 plus. saw many couples. bith of us feel very sucky. haha. then when to meet my family for dinner. that was my valentine's day.
next up wad i have been up to. now waiting for exams to be over. then can go beach. very long never go already. have been catching up with chris alot. alot of people think that we are together but i will say no. but wad the use of explaining. u noe urself can already. then she told me this when i told her that alot of people say we together. she said if we really wanted to be together then we long ago together already. very true. cos we have known each other and became very close for a long time already. so to my good friend. i love u as a friend ya. and we both noe that we can never be together. haha.
another thing i have been doing is e mailing one of my long lost friend su ann. she i now in london. after talking to her online and by e mail i have found that she has change alot. and grown up alot. was really hoping to see her again cos i wan to see how much she has really change. but too bad she dunno when she will be back. and like she say she love me as a friend and me too i love her as a friend and we both do miss each other. so su ann if u read this i hope u come back soon.
next up.... nth much left. caught up with some old friends lately. talk to them online. felt good that i am still friends with them. thats about it. dunno when will be the next time i blog. hope not too long. take care all that read my blog and God bless u all. and to the feel good and best friends i have. really love u all cos u all have been a great help in a part of my life. oh ya. leaving with one thing to say. aaron told me this cos he saw poon's msn nick. something like this. " relationship dun last forever but brotherhood last for ever. our brotherhood that is. gtg now and study again. the time now is 330 am. signing off. JONBROK.....
part two. my life so far. how have i been getting along. i think i am getting along ok i guess. not too sure onli some times will have the shit feeling. sometimes will be emo. but guess its onli for sometime. now everyday study for exam if not go out wif edwin they all. valentines day was yet again a lonely day. even thought i had gf before, i have never had one during valentine's day. all happen to break up with me or i break up with them before valentine's day come. but valentine's day is jus a day lar. nth much about it. how i spent my valentine's day this year. when to buy present for someone. but realise that she won't accept it. so kind of like wasted my money. but anyway the thing is that i tried. thats wad counts. then went to my friend's condo for tuition. she was going to teach me maths. but when i reach the condo outside receive a msg from her say she not feeling well so cannot teach me. i dun blame her cos is not she wan to put me airplane. is cos she sick. so i had nth to do. so i called aaron. and he was nice enough to let me go his house. when reach his house his family was like waiting for me to eat lunch. i was so paiseh. but his family was very nice and funny people. his grandma is really funny. and i found out she like to watch korean shows like me. so i stayed in aaron's house and watch jay chou vcd. then went to meet edwin and zong. then zong go sch. so i and edwin go town cos he wan to buy birthday present. shop in town till about 6 plus. saw many couples. bith of us feel very sucky. haha. then when to meet my family for dinner. that was my valentine's day.
next up wad i have been up to. now waiting for exams to be over. then can go beach. very long never go already. have been catching up with chris alot. alot of people think that we are together but i will say no. but wad the use of explaining. u noe urself can already. then she told me this when i told her that alot of people say we together. she said if we really wanted to be together then we long ago together already. very true. cos we have known each other and became very close for a long time already. so to my good friend. i love u as a friend ya. and we both noe that we can never be together. haha.
another thing i have been doing is e mailing one of my long lost friend su ann. she i now in london. after talking to her online and by e mail i have found that she has change alot. and grown up alot. was really hoping to see her again cos i wan to see how much she has really change. but too bad she dunno when she will be back. and like she say she love me as a friend and me too i love her as a friend and we both do miss each other. so su ann if u read this i hope u come back soon.
next up.... nth much left. caught up with some old friends lately. talk to them online. felt good that i am still friends with them. thats about it. dunno when will be the next time i blog. hope not too long. take care all that read my blog and God bless u all. and to the feel good and best friends i have. really love u all cos u all have been a great help in a part of my life. oh ya. leaving with one thing to say. aaron told me this cos he saw poon's msn nick. something like this. " relationship dun last forever but brotherhood last for ever. our brotherhood that is. gtg now and study again. the time now is 330 am. signing off. JONBROK.....
Friday, February 10, 2006 2/10/2006 12:19:00 PMY
its been a long road. long time. seen i blog and seen many other things. one month plus already. and here i am still like that. sch is boring like hell. nth interest me in sch. that is y i am applying to change course. wad can i say. i guess no one reads my blog anyway. jus wan to say that i use to blog for a reason now the reason is gone. so there is no need for me to blog.
hope i win 10 million hahaha.
hope i win 10 million hahaha.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006 1/25/2006 07:02:00 PMY
its been a long time seens i blog. there is nth to blog about. my whole life is left with sch home. then sch then home. i noe it sucks. getting into that bad mood again. where i start to think of lots of things. this is when i realise that i have not forgotten anything. i jus try to hide it. but it all still there. the feelings and all. i hate myself for being like that. but i can't control the way i feel. so i guess i am still that sickening guy. that idiot guy. deep down in my heart i still love u. but guess the u hates me now. have anyone ever noe how it feels for the one u love so much to hate u. where can a person put such a pain away. my world become so empty, my days are so clod and lonely. each night i taste the purest of pain.
Saturday, January 14, 2006 1/14/2006 05:03:00 PMY
today is a very boring day.
Thursday, January 12, 2006 1/12/2006 09:27:00 PMY
blogging blogging blogging. y do people blog. y do i blog. do guys that blog means they are gay. blogging for me now is to write things that i feel cos i got no one to talk to. so writing it out here will make inside feel better. i am trying to move on. working real hard on it. moving abit already. the onli thing now is that she hates me. thats the part i am most sad of. but i will hope that she will be able to forgive me. jus dun hate me for too long. can't we even be friends???
someone told me. she is not worth it. but i think she is. cannot be my girl friend still can be friend rite.. but i dunno. anyway i read that her hand still hurts. dun think she will read this. but i pray that ur hand heal faster. and it won't hurt anymore. may God bless u.
someone told me. she is not worth it. but i think she is. cannot be my girl friend still can be friend rite.. but i dunno. anyway i read that her hand still hurts. dun think she will read this. but i pray that ur hand heal faster. and it won't hurt anymore. may God bless u.
Monday, January 09, 2006 1/09/2006 03:08:00 PMY
haven been bloging cos my com down again. so onli can use com in sch. which means i using it now in sch. dun really noe wad to blog. nth much happen to my boring life. oh. something new might happen. cos i maybe changing course. which means i will not be studying mechatronics in tp. but maybe tourism in tp. but i have to go and see the course manger first and all. if everything goes well then i will most probably be starting sch same time as the o level students. that means i have wasted one year. but wad for staying in a course i dunno like at all. then if i can go tourism then aaron also can go then maybe we will get to be in the class. but it all have to see wad the teacher says. hope can. ivp starting today. but our match is not until fri. sent her the fixtures for my match but i dun think she will come and watch. anyway today most probably having friendly with my coursin team the air force. so thats about it. over here i would like to share something.
love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. (1 corinthians 13: 4-7)
so if u r wondering wad love is and find it a very difficult question to answer. here is one answer that i think is very good. btw if u r wondering where i get this from, its from the bible. i believe in God and have faith in him. therefore i believe wad the bible say. that love is patient, love is kind. it does not evny, it does not boast. and it is not self-seeking.
this maybe the area i went wrong last time. too much self- seeking. but i am beinging to learn from the bible. this shows how great our God is that even at this time when i am hurt and all i still get to learn something and that he has a plan for everything that has happen. so thats about it. for those who dunno about God and would like to noe more i will be more than willing to talk to u about it. and tell u wad i believe. but i may not be too good at it. i onli noe i believe. take care people. will try to blog soon. tag me if u wan. cos my tag board abit empty. haha. God Bless.
love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. (1 corinthians 13: 4-7)
so if u r wondering wad love is and find it a very difficult question to answer. here is one answer that i think is very good. btw if u r wondering where i get this from, its from the bible. i believe in God and have faith in him. therefore i believe wad the bible say. that love is patient, love is kind. it does not evny, it does not boast. and it is not self-seeking.
this maybe the area i went wrong last time. too much self- seeking. but i am beinging to learn from the bible. this shows how great our God is that even at this time when i am hurt and all i still get to learn something and that he has a plan for everything that has happen. so thats about it. for those who dunno about God and would like to noe more i will be more than willing to talk to u about it. and tell u wad i believe. but i may not be too good at it. i onli noe i believe. take care people. will try to blog soon. tag me if u wan. cos my tag board abit empty. haha. God Bless.
Thursday, January 05, 2006 1/05/2006 08:20:00 PMY
i think i finally woke up. i am awake. ya having a relationship tied her down. jus glad that she is free and happy.
didn't do much yesterday. slpet my whole day away actually. then went for training. anyway today went to sch. java sux. i fail java test. sux man. then also fail D Fund. but did not bad. one of the best in my class actually. then for ssmat i got the highest in class. so happy. never have i get highest for anything. then was in ssmat tutorial when gf msg me. ask me go watch movie at 4. but my lesson ends at 4. so i had to run out of class half way to meet her. told teacher i had doc appointment. haha. but anyway i also got loa. she was late. wad can i say man. haha. then we watch Elizabethtown. ok onli lar. then after that walk walk and now i am here. did a bit of thinking today when i saw a very short e mail. hit me right in the face. quite hard actually. but guess it was good. at least it woke me up. so yup i will listen to the advise greg gave me. its good. guess now for the time being she hates me. hope she dun hates me for long. cos i still wan to be friends. but not at this point of time. yup i am slowly moving on i guess. thats good and i am happy that i am doing it. can't wait to move all the way. today i came to understand and see a different side of things. so i woke up. thanks to all the people that actually show their care for me. and thanks for all the advise and the asking of me to cheer up. really shows that when i am in such a state i have such friends around. great i guess. so thanks u all. and sorry to u. that i cos u so much trouble and pain and sadness. hate me now. but dun hate me for long. cos i would like to have a day where i can shake ur hand and we will be friends again. if that happens then actually God really make all things happen for a reason. cos i last time dunno u well. then becos of wad we had i got to noe u better. and after wad have happen we still can be friends then i guess we will end up being closer friends then way before when i didn't noe u well. so maybe God's plan was for us to be better friends. ya. so anyway. thanks to everyone... esp... gf.. who company me here and there. trying to scold me to wake me up. and for chad. thanks for caring. and the cd too. and of cos must thanks jasmine. cos she was there to talk to me online. and also help me make my blog until so nice. haha. to me its nice lar. and also to irene. thanks for all the vcds. will return u soon. so thats about it. oh and han lin. for wanting to meet but never had a chance. but its ok at least u tried. so now i can say Happy New Year. cos at least i found back some of my happiness. love u all. God bless u all. and me too.
didn't do much yesterday. slpet my whole day away actually. then went for training. anyway today went to sch. java sux. i fail java test. sux man. then also fail D Fund. but did not bad. one of the best in my class actually. then for ssmat i got the highest in class. so happy. never have i get highest for anything. then was in ssmat tutorial when gf msg me. ask me go watch movie at 4. but my lesson ends at 4. so i had to run out of class half way to meet her. told teacher i had doc appointment. haha. but anyway i also got loa. she was late. wad can i say man. haha. then we watch Elizabethtown. ok onli lar. then after that walk walk and now i am here. did a bit of thinking today when i saw a very short e mail. hit me right in the face. quite hard actually. but guess it was good. at least it woke me up. so yup i will listen to the advise greg gave me. its good. guess now for the time being she hates me. hope she dun hates me for long. cos i still wan to be friends. but not at this point of time. yup i am slowly moving on i guess. thats good and i am happy that i am doing it. can't wait to move all the way. today i came to understand and see a different side of things. so i woke up. thanks to all the people that actually show their care for me. and thanks for all the advise and the asking of me to cheer up. really shows that when i am in such a state i have such friends around. great i guess. so thanks u all. and sorry to u. that i cos u so much trouble and pain and sadness. hate me now. but dun hate me for long. cos i would like to have a day where i can shake ur hand and we will be friends again. if that happens then actually God really make all things happen for a reason. cos i last time dunno u well. then becos of wad we had i got to noe u better. and after wad have happen we still can be friends then i guess we will end up being closer friends then way before when i didn't noe u well. so maybe God's plan was for us to be better friends. ya. so anyway. thanks to everyone... esp... gf.. who company me here and there. trying to scold me to wake me up. and for chad. thanks for caring. and the cd too. and of cos must thanks jasmine. cos she was there to talk to me online. and also help me make my blog until so nice. haha. to me its nice lar. and also to irene. thanks for all the vcds. will return u soon. so thats about it. oh and han lin. for wanting to meet but never had a chance. but its ok at least u tried. so now i can say Happy New Year. cos at least i found back some of my happiness. love u all. God bless u all. and me too.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006 1/04/2006 11:01:00 AMY
today was boring. i noe i dun go sch. go sch for one hour onli. waste time. might as well slp at home. then after class dunno where to go at all. seems like i really have no friends ar. all alone by myself again. so i took a bus home. and here i am. today i went out of the house telling myself i got to be happy. but after sch and all. finding myself all alone. thinking back at things. i realise i was not happy again. so officially now my life sux. seem like i try to make it better. but there is jus nth for me to look forward to. where is my motivation to life. when i wake up everything seems so blur. like it was jus yesterday where i had everything. had happiness. but then it all seems to go away as quickly as it came. leaving me wif onli sadness. maybe i am jus to emotional. maybe. maybe. maybe.
maybe i will never get over it. maybe i will be like that. maybe i will change to become a different person. maybe. everything is maybe. like the lyrics of the song u r listening to. only heaven knows wad will become of me. and if i will be happy again wif the one i love.
maybe i will never get over it. maybe i will be like that. maybe i will change to become a different person. maybe. everything is maybe. like the lyrics of the song u r listening to. only heaven knows wad will become of me. and if i will be happy again wif the one i love.
Monday, January 02, 2006 1/02/2006 10:28:00 PMY
tml start sch already. hope sch can help me keep my mind off things for a while. but how long can i run away from it. last night talk to greg. he told me alot of things. i should let go. thats wad he told me. cos i should not make her unhappy. told him i would do anything for her. even if it cost my life. some one told me this. dun because of one tree give up the whole forest. but i return him wif this words. she is the whole forest to me. so wad am i to do. my mind tells me that moving on is the right think to do. but my heart tells me that i still love her alot. anyway today i went to jav house. watch vcd. then we went to eat dinner cos xavier birthday coming. then we went to play cs. very long never play already. so quite fun. but all the fun came to and an end. and wad i thought i will not think of came back in. how i wish i would jus forget all. then i won't hurt so much. but i guess i won't be able to forget. dunno y also. but i wan u to be happy thats all. i guess u won't noe. cos i think u dun read my blog anymore. i guess u hate me already. and find me irritating. i am sorry thats all i can say but i can't stop my heart from feeling this way. really sorry. =(
Sunday, January 01, 2006 1/01/2006 05:59:00 PMY
today was quite a bad day. first its raining the whole day. sucks. today i heard a song and i wanted to write it here. part of it. (maybe my love will come back some day, only heaven knows. maybe our hearts will find a way, only heaven knows. all i can do is hope and pray cause heaven knows.) (she is always on my mind, from the time i wake up till i close my eyes.) (even now she is gone i am still holding. tell me where do i start cos its breaking my heart. dun wan to let her go.) thats one song. parts from here and there. there another song. buy its chi. so i will try to change it to eng. ( my love will be with u forever, there will be a day when we hold hands together in the park listening to the bird sing.) i guess M u should noe wad song this is. the starting of the song is 1943.
thats all for today. sorry no mood to write anything and wad happen to my day. so i will like to wish u all Happy New Year. hope urs will be happy.
thats all for today. sorry no mood to write anything and wad happen to my day. so i will like to wish u all Happy New Year. hope urs will be happy.
Friday, December 30, 2005 12/30/2005 09:54:00 AMY
yesterday never blog. too lazy. so here is ad happen yesterday. woke up. use the com. then went to meet hwee koon. very long never see her already. watch a movie. a chinese tall story. so funny can the show. then she left so i went to meet abigale. then we went k box with hua lun, our class mother and the two of us. had fun in k box. but all the songs some how will be sad and remind me of things. took many photos doing stupid and funny things. then went home. thats about it.
ur msn nick writes just a being walking ard aimlessly meainglessly. like a headless chicken. u dun have to walk aimlessly, meainglessly. like a headless chicken. because i will be right here waiting for u. like the song say: " where ever u go, wadever u do i here be right here waiting for u. wad ever it takes or how my heart breaks i will be right here wiaiting for u. i said u might be the fish i may be the bird. we may not meant to be. but i am willing that the bird go into the water to be with the fish. i still can't forget u.
ur msn nick writes just a being walking ard aimlessly meainglessly. like a headless chicken. u dun have to walk aimlessly, meainglessly. like a headless chicken. because i will be right here waiting for u. like the song say: " where ever u go, wadever u do i here be right here waiting for u. wad ever it takes or how my heart breaks i will be right here wiaiting for u. i said u might be the fish i may be the bird. we may not meant to be. but i am willing that the bird go into the water to be with the fish. i still can't forget u.
Thursday, December 29, 2005 12/29/2005 12:51:00 AMY
bloging has become a thing to do everyday. but some days u jus dun feel like bloging. so i got a tag board all thanks to jasmine. she has been a great friend. helping me in other ways too. thanks man. u ask for a user name. i say angel. u say u r not. but i think is like God sent me an angel or should i say more than one to see me pass this sad period of time. so u r an angel in a way. but u wan a user name. from wad i read from ur blog i think u can use little angel girl. cos u say u r girl girl type.
anyway today didn't do much onli went for training. then after training went to eat at 802 coffee shop. then sit there talk to all the shss bro until 11+ which is quite late then came home. so thats about it. my boring life. oh ya. i was listening to the jay chou song and wondering if it make sense to me. maybe wad had happen between me and her was all jus an accident. jus like in the song it says " sea bird and fish in love, is onli and accident." maybe thats wad its trying to tell me. i am the bird or the fish and she is the other half. so fish and bird cannot be together. so thats y it was all an accident. but even if so i enjoy it. and have happy momries. and was happy. but she now seems happier and more FREE. so i am happy for her. that she is happy. thats it. tag me.
anyway today didn't do much onli went for training. then after training went to eat at 802 coffee shop. then sit there talk to all the shss bro until 11+ which is quite late then came home. so thats about it. my boring life. oh ya. i was listening to the jay chou song and wondering if it make sense to me. maybe wad had happen between me and her was all jus an accident. jus like in the song it says " sea bird and fish in love, is onli and accident." maybe thats wad its trying to tell me. i am the bird or the fish and she is the other half. so fish and bird cannot be together. so thats y it was all an accident. but even if so i enjoy it. and have happy momries. and was happy. but she now seems happier and more FREE. so i am happy for her. that she is happy. thats it. tag me.
Tuesday, December 27, 2005 12/27/2005 08:46:00 PMY
lets start wif today was a long day. first of all woke up at 10 to go to sch for project meeting. did nth much. then i left for sentosa. reach there at 1 plus and it was raining. wth rite. i noe i dun go project meeting and go there early in the morning. played abit and the rain was like on and off. so we left. then ate abit then i left for town wif aaron, hua lun and kang wei. then in town walk and walk cannot find my puma jacket. so angry. then we ate more at town. i think i eat alot. now see food i will throw out lor. anyway then we wanted to go to cityhall. but walking to the mrt was long. cos we stop and see things. then hua lun buy apuma bag for himself. then we walk to the mrt finally. at citylink kang wei bought a bag also. and aaron was so angry cos he found out he got cheated becos of the bag. haha. then we walk to marina square. and i finally bought the abit formal jacket that i was looking for all over. and aaron bought this two little cute thing from action city. for who i shall not say. haha. aaron dun angry lar. the bag buy already so also can't do anything. hehe. cheer up man.
thats about it. feel free to tag me.
thats about it. feel free to tag me.
Monday, December 26, 2005 12/26/2005 04:20:00 PMY
this christmas is my worst one ever. never expect it to be like that. in fact it was going to be the best one ever. but things change. and so do plan. so now christmas has been the worst one ever. sad that christmas turn out like that but thats life i have to face it. new year will be here soon and it will be the worst one ever again. so it is made. the decision. that is ending of 2005 or should i say dec 2005 as been the worst part of my life. and people still think dec is fun and happy. holiday so people think it will be fun and happy. but fun i dun see. happy i dun feel. so merry christmas and a happy new year to everybody. and a sad christmas and new year to me. may all ur wish come true. cos my has already proven not to have come true. so thats my boring life.
Saturday, December 24, 2005 12/24/2005 11:53:00 PMY
ho ho ho. its going to be christmas in 8 mins. now blogging at brandon house. today was ok. came brandon house in the afternoon. then go mr wong place for dinner. and exchange gifts. got edwin's one. and he gave me a big star. which remind me of someone. so now here at brandon house again. staying over till tml. thats about it. this christmas not that fun. cos of few reasons. but everything will be fine. thats about it. MERRY CHRISTMAS.
Friday, December 23, 2005 12/23/2005 10:17:00 PMY
today was a good day.
saw abigale on my way to tm. she asked me about my relationship. so she now noes wad happen already. she ask me not to be too sad. but..
anyway went out wif aaron, zhi zong and brandon to watch The Chronicles Of Narnia. nice movie man. then i and aaron meet early to get tickets and also to shop. i bought my ear phone finally. but it cost me $40. now my jeans got hole. haha. then after movie was going to meet hua lun (the gay boy) haha. then saw him wif han yang. so we left for town at about 5 plus. but brandon didn't go. so onli gay boy, aaron, zhi zong and me. went to do shopping but i didn't buy anything. the main reason was for hua lun to buy things for his wife. so we shop in town until 9 plus then we made our way home. tml will be going for a christmas party at mr wong's house. should be fun wif all my bros. so let see wad this christmas brings. jus hope that it does not bring anymore bad surprise. i dun think i can handle it. good surprise r always welcome. so anyone wan to drop me a christmas present i dun mind. glad to receive. hehe.
oh poor gf (good friend) didn't get to go library. maybe next time. then i will follow u.
take care. and MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL...
saw abigale on my way to tm. she asked me about my relationship. so she now noes wad happen already. she ask me not to be too sad. but..
anyway went out wif aaron, zhi zong and brandon to watch The Chronicles Of Narnia. nice movie man. then i and aaron meet early to get tickets and also to shop. i bought my ear phone finally. but it cost me $40. now my jeans got hole. haha. then after movie was going to meet hua lun (the gay boy) haha. then saw him wif han yang. so we left for town at about 5 plus. but brandon didn't go. so onli gay boy, aaron, zhi zong and me. went to do shopping but i didn't buy anything. the main reason was for hua lun to buy things for his wife. so we shop in town until 9 plus then we made our way home. tml will be going for a christmas party at mr wong's house. should be fun wif all my bros. so let see wad this christmas brings. jus hope that it does not bring anymore bad surprise. i dun think i can handle it. good surprise r always welcome. so anyone wan to drop me a christmas present i dun mind. glad to receive. hehe.
oh poor gf (good friend) didn't get to go library. maybe next time. then i will follow u.
take care. and MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL...
Thursday, December 22, 2005 12/22/2005 12:10:00 PMY
yup. read ur blog. get wad u mean. so its good i gave u the card back. sorry to have disturb u yesterday. i understand that now u jus wan to be alone. ok. i am fine wif it. but i hope that this did not spoil our friendship. so for now i will be out of ur sight and all. till one day when u think we can be friends again then u let me noe. that about it. all i wan to tell u. oh and the movie lets forget about it. i guess u won't wan to watch too. wish u will stay happy. and MERRY CHRISTMAS. and enjoy the musical tonight. take care.
this morning i woke up early to go irene house cos i wanted to borrow vcds. so i had to be early wad. her house dame nice. first time i see condo so big. the condo itself was nice too. borrowed many vcds to watch. going to kill myself wif tv. then i after that she had to go work so i better leave and not disturb people. i went down and walk round the condo myself. nice man. then i took a bus to east point to help her post some letters. and now i am here. dunno wad will i be doing today. should be staying home the whole day. rotting my life away maybe. haha. or teaching my mind more things from vcds. and yes she lend me the BOA vcd. yes yes yes. finally i can watch. haha. anyway thats about it. take care everyone who read this. God Bless u all.
this morning i woke up early to go irene house cos i wanted to borrow vcds. so i had to be early wad. her house dame nice. first time i see condo so big. the condo itself was nice too. borrowed many vcds to watch. going to kill myself wif tv. then i after that she had to go work so i better leave and not disturb people. i went down and walk round the condo myself. nice man. then i took a bus to east point to help her post some letters. and now i am here. dunno wad will i be doing today. should be staying home the whole day. rotting my life away maybe. haha. or teaching my mind more things from vcds. and yes she lend me the BOA vcd. yes yes yes. finally i can watch. haha. anyway thats about it. take care everyone who read this. God Bless u all.
Wednesday, December 21, 2005 12/21/2005 01:22:00 PMY
back in sch. no one to lunch wif so guess i will jus skip lunch. everyone is studying now. but i dunno y i am not. but nvm. anyway jus read M blog. seeing that she is happier and free now, i feel happy for her. noeing that loving that person is not being together wif that person but noeing that the person is happy wif or wifout u. thats wad i learnt. today went to M house. quite funny. but i would like M to noe that i already noe that its all over. wads has been said had been done. i relise that already. but i really hope that this will not disturb our friendship. we can't be in a relationship. but i am sure we can still be good friends jus like before we were in the relationship. jus that pure friendship that we have. u ok wif it. pls dun treat me different. i am still that ying wei. ur friend, ur sec 1 leader. and one thing someone once said that friendship last forever and relationship some how dun. so i guess i am happy now that we are no more in this relationship cos u r happy. and i am happy that u r. so lets go into a friendship that last forever. and maybe somewhere in ur life u will find the right one. the one that will really make u happy and treat u well..
ps: M i jus wan to tell u i still love u. but now as a friend. hope we can be good friends from now on and treat each other the same. u said before i will make a great friend. so i hope i will be one to u now. so dun feel funny when i ask u to watch the movie. is jus that i really can't get anyone. so as a friend u won't wan to see me alone rite. haha.. so hope to watch it wif u and maybe from there we will accept each other as good friends. all the best to our friendship. wad do u say??? pls let me noe if we r able to start this friendship once again. thanks. take care my friend. oh and thanks for the gift.
ps: M i jus wan to tell u i still love u. but now as a friend. hope we can be good friends from now on and treat each other the same. u said before i will make a great friend. so i hope i will be one to u now. so dun feel funny when i ask u to watch the movie. is jus that i really can't get anyone. so as a friend u won't wan to see me alone rite. haha.. so hope to watch it wif u and maybe from there we will accept each other as good friends. all the best to our friendship. wad do u say??? pls let me noe if we r able to start this friendship once again. thanks. take care my friend. oh and thanks for the gift.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005 12/20/2005 06:51:00 PMY
today went ikea wif gf. reminded me of alot of things. alot of happy memories i had. then i was wondering did she really jus let all this memories go so fast. God told her i was not the one. so i guess i have no say. after thinking like always. i came to find out that its actually my fault that things become like that. y do i say that. i was wondering was i the victim or not. now i found out that if i am the victim i am the one that cause it. i relise y she made this decision. my fault was that i make things move too fast. thats y she feels i am not the right one. cos i have been pushing things. and i relise my mistake. but will there be a chance for me to change wad i have done. to have things start all over again. to move slowly into it once again. i duno. but i think the chance is not high. i think she will not forgive me yet. but i still have to tell her this i have made a mistake and i learnt my mistake.. so will u give me a chance to make things right. and to stop the sadness from both of us. pls let me noe. but i guess ur ans will be no. but still i pray for that small little chance that i will be able to get to redeem myself. to change wad was wrong to right. to change the sadness into happiness once again. u were happy wif me before u said. and i will make u happy in time to come. so i am praying real hard for jus one chance to make things right. i still miss u alot. pls reply and let me noe. thnaks.
Monday, December 19, 2005 12/19/2005 10:30:00 PMY
today was not a very good day. when for exam. before that got myself into bad shape. so do exam also sian. then jus now went for training in shss. then my stupid juniors keep asking about my girl friend. y must they remind me. y must they rub it in. it hurts bad enough already. so juniors pls jus leave me alone. can't i even try to get my mind off something. y must u all do this to me. its already bad enough. so get lose u all. dun care about me. dun ask me anything. jus leave me alone. i have no hope i have no life for now. i tried. but its not working. someone help me. God send someone to help me. to save me. daddy where are u? y didn't u warn me. y mus i go through such pain. save me i am dying. God give me the strength i need.
Sunday, December 18, 2005 12/18/2005 07:20:00 PMY
today was still ok.. woke up. never like that. cos when awake i think. went out today with edwin zong and brandon. they help me kill time and also keep my mind from thinking. good in a way but also bad in another. i dun wan to run i wan to face the problem. i wan to solve it. so i have made up my mind to do something. something that i shall not say. onli i will noe. today at 77 street saw M's friend working there. and also today when M told me she was having a fever, i could not help it but think. is she alright. is she ok. and i started to worry. but wad right do i have. right now i am nothing. i can't do anything. hope M u will take care of urself. and if u have any problems or trouble. u still can call me. i will always be there for u no matter wad. so take care. cos i am not in the position to do that any more. and yes i still miss and think of u.
Saturday, December 17, 2005 12/17/2005 07:57:00 PMY
to the people reading this.. todays blog will be long... jus to let u noe..
todays blog is about a story.. a story of a boy who lost everything. he was praying that this day will never come. but it did. the day when he was rob of everything. happiness turned into sadness. memories turned into sharp knief and into the heart it goes. hope and joy turned into hurt and pain. this will be the story of the boy whose life change in a night.
the night was tiring. the night was not cold. the night was sad. filled with tears in his eyes. never had he thought he would cry like that once again. when the last time he did was when he was 4 a young boy then. 14 years ago. when his dad pass away. he couldn't slp. he was tired but he couldn't slp. finally his body got to him and he felt asleep into a slp he had hope he would not wake up from. when he woke up in the morning he felt this pain. he had fallen from a tall building and landed right on his chest first. the pain he felt he could not put it away. he tried but it didn't work. he cried but it did not help. the one he love so dearly so much was gone. he thought in his mind. something bad i should say. he thought God is this a test for me. R u testing my faith for u. is this a big joke u r playing on me. (thats the bad part.) but he could not get an answer. he always believe that God has a plan for him. so wad was God's plan now by taking away his happiness. he didn't noe and still is thinking wad it can all mean. wad was the joke some of u may think. here it is. the big joke that he thought. he waited for 8 days for his love one to return. couldn't wait for her to be back. and the joke is he waited 8 days to hear a break up. a break up that will bring his whole world down in jus one night. funny isn't it. he waited so long for someone to find out that he waited for the worst thing that could happen to him. no one noes how he feels. people might think they noe but they dun. cos they think with their brains not their heart. the boy lives on. dunno wad will happen next. may time heal or may time bring more hurt.
i jsu got back from a long walk from pasir ris to tampines and back to simei. the walk took about 1 hour and 30 mins. thinking alot as he walk. but felt the most pain when i step into my own house. can't forget. memories that i once had. memories that was happy. now wonders in my mind of if it was good ones or has it turn into something that is hurting. for now it is hurt.
i strongly dun believe that one will change her feelings that fast. jus one trip. i have done nth wrong u say. but the result i get is like a pushinment to me for something i did wrong. the thing u took away from me was the one i treasured the most. the one that i was willing to put up my life for. now its gone.
reflection: God i noe i was wrong in thinking u played a big joke on me. i noe u have a plan. make me strong to see the plan and to move one. give me the strength that i need. in Jesus name i pray. amen.
todays blog is about a story.. a story of a boy who lost everything. he was praying that this day will never come. but it did. the day when he was rob of everything. happiness turned into sadness. memories turned into sharp knief and into the heart it goes. hope and joy turned into hurt and pain. this will be the story of the boy whose life change in a night.
the night was tiring. the night was not cold. the night was sad. filled with tears in his eyes. never had he thought he would cry like that once again. when the last time he did was when he was 4 a young boy then. 14 years ago. when his dad pass away. he couldn't slp. he was tired but he couldn't slp. finally his body got to him and he felt asleep into a slp he had hope he would not wake up from. when he woke up in the morning he felt this pain. he had fallen from a tall building and landed right on his chest first. the pain he felt he could not put it away. he tried but it didn't work. he cried but it did not help. the one he love so dearly so much was gone. he thought in his mind. something bad i should say. he thought God is this a test for me. R u testing my faith for u. is this a big joke u r playing on me. (thats the bad part.) but he could not get an answer. he always believe that God has a plan for him. so wad was God's plan now by taking away his happiness. he didn't noe and still is thinking wad it can all mean. wad was the joke some of u may think. here it is. the big joke that he thought. he waited for 8 days for his love one to return. couldn't wait for her to be back. and the joke is he waited 8 days to hear a break up. a break up that will bring his whole world down in jus one night. funny isn't it. he waited so long for someone to find out that he waited for the worst thing that could happen to him. no one noes how he feels. people might think they noe but they dun. cos they think with their brains not their heart. the boy lives on. dunno wad will happen next. may time heal or may time bring more hurt.
i jsu got back from a long walk from pasir ris to tampines and back to simei. the walk took about 1 hour and 30 mins. thinking alot as he walk. but felt the most pain when i step into my own house. can't forget. memories that i once had. memories that was happy. now wonders in my mind of if it was good ones or has it turn into something that is hurting. for now it is hurt.
i strongly dun believe that one will change her feelings that fast. jus one trip. i have done nth wrong u say. but the result i get is like a pushinment to me for something i did wrong. the thing u took away from me was the one i treasured the most. the one that i was willing to put up my life for. now its gone.
reflection: God i noe i was wrong in thinking u played a big joke on me. i noe u have a plan. make me strong to see the plan and to move one. give me the strength that i need. in Jesus name i pray. amen.
Friday, December 16, 2005 12/16/2005 10:48:00 AMY
last night i went to airport to study... then picked dear up... went back to study until 6.. went to sch.. reach at 7 when lesson at 8. slp in class for about 5 mins... then after class went home... slp for 2 hrs then went to dear house. spent the day there.. then went wif her to her mother cell group... it was ok.. but i think someone not very happy about it... or maybe she is jus tired.. but wad ever it is.. dear i still love u.. and if there is anything u wan to tell me.. be it good or bad.. or any problem... pls let me noe.. so that i can reflect on it and make the right changes... ok...
ps: Dear u r back and i am very happy... love u lotz...
ps: Dear u r back and i am very happy... love u lotz...
Thursday, December 15, 2005 12/15/2005 05:18:00 PMY
today is thursday.. 15/12/05...
yes yes yes.. finally thursday is here.. tonight i will be going to the airport to study and of cos for the main reason see dear.. can't wait to see her.. have been waiting for too long.. really too long... finally its here.. anyway today sch was ok... then got back my d fund quiz.. got 20/30.. quite happy.. then had java which i dun understand at all.. still got java project ... how to do man... then i had another quiz on ssmat.. it was ok.. can do... so hope get good result.. tml morning dear is coming back.. yea... i still missing her alot.. so can't wait.. now going to rest a while then get ready to go airport.. see u soon dear...
ps: Dear finally u r returning.. love u dear...
yes yes yes.. finally thursday is here.. tonight i will be going to the airport to study and of cos for the main reason see dear.. can't wait to see her.. have been waiting for too long.. really too long... finally its here.. anyway today sch was ok... then got back my d fund quiz.. got 20/30.. quite happy.. then had java which i dun understand at all.. still got java project ... how to do man... then i had another quiz on ssmat.. it was ok.. can do... so hope get good result.. tml morning dear is coming back.. yea... i still missing her alot.. so can't wait.. now going to rest a while then get ready to go airport.. see u soon dear...
ps: Dear finally u r returning.. love u dear...
Wednesday, December 14, 2005 12/14/2005 02:30:00 PMY
today is wed.. 14/12/05...
today is the worst day yet.. y??? cos today sch was short.. and that means i end sch early and got no where to go... so came home.. when there is free time i will always think of dear... so thats y today is the worst day yet... cos i really miss her alot.. its been 6 days seen i last saw her.. longest already... that time was max 4 days.. now is already 6... that time 4 days still can call and msg.. now also cannot.... anyway dear will be back soon... can't wait to see her... going to slp now and see if can see her in my dream... tonight got friendly match again so i should rest now i guess.. tml will be the day.. cos tml after sch i go home then at night go airport study and wait for dear to come back... and yes last night dream of u again.. so ee u in my dream...
ps: love u very much dear... see u soon...
today is the worst day yet.. y??? cos today sch was short.. and that means i end sch early and got no where to go... so came home.. when there is free time i will always think of dear... so thats y today is the worst day yet... cos i really miss her alot.. its been 6 days seen i last saw her.. longest already... that time was max 4 days.. now is already 6... that time 4 days still can call and msg.. now also cannot.... anyway dear will be back soon... can't wait to see her... going to slp now and see if can see her in my dream... tonight got friendly match again so i should rest now i guess.. tml will be the day.. cos tml after sch i go home then at night go airport study and wait for dear to come back... and yes last night dream of u again.. so ee u in my dream...
ps: love u very much dear... see u soon...
Tuesday, December 13, 2005 12/13/2005 08:51:00 PMY
today is tues... 13/12/05...
today sch was long real long... boring over all... today sch finish early.. cos today lab test so finish then go... went to the library after sch cos follow my friend go.. then use com a while... so bored talk to people online asking people to go out.. but no one free... but in the end i went to tm wif my friend... then we 3 went to watch movie... three guys go watch movie.. abit funny ar.. haha... then now i am here... my friend say that they will be going to stay with me over night at the airport on thurs night and one of them going to teach me.. so good.. at least i won't be alone.. and yes i dream of dear again.. these few days keep dreaming of her. maybe its cos she not around... then keep thinkning of her thats y at night will dream of her... who noes rite.. i can't control my dream... hehe...
this afternoon i msg dear's mum.. ask her wad time dear flight.. she told me 3 to4 and say she dun expect me to go as it is dead in the night.. haha.. but i guess i will still go cos i studying there wif my friends wad.. actually the real reason is to go see dear... studying is jus the on the way thing... so dear i will see u at the airport.. anyway jus wan to say all i wan for christmas is u.. from the song ya...
and heres aother song.. part of it lar..
i miss u like crazy even more than words could say.
i miss u like crazy every min of everyday.
girl i'm so down when ur loves not around.
i miss u miss u miss u. i miss u like crazy.
(find out wad song it is.. hehe...
miss u dear... hope everything is fine over there in thailand and that u r not feeling too cold.. hehe..
ps: Dear I LOVE YOU... :)
Monday, December 12, 2005 12/12/2005 02:01:00 PMY
today is mon... 12/12/05... the first day of sch...
today sch have alot of breaks... dear u should noe that.. i always go to ur house when got break but today cannot cos u not in.. so i went to watch phantom of the opera in my sch library.. very nice like wad u said.. but they never show how the girl die.. then the bf grow so old already but the girls mother look the same age as him... haha.. today is a very boring day.. later still got lab test.. my friend jus now ask me y i look so sian.. then i say tired then he say gf not around also tired.. i say u not around thats y sian... last night dear call me.. i was shock... didn't get to say much cos i was shock.. wanted to ask her how was she... hows her hand... cold a not... and also i wanted to tell her i miss her alot and i love her... but didn't get the chance to say... so i say here.. dear i miss u alot and i love u...
told dear i was going to the airport to fetch her.. but she say her parents will scold me.. i say nvm.. cos i going there to study also...anyway i think i shall add on tonight.. nth much happen yet.. jus that i am very tired.. oh ya... u must come my house and see... i put up so many photos... so now there are 11 of u dear in my room... come and see soon... and also miss u dear...
today sch have alot of breaks... dear u should noe that.. i always go to ur house when got break but today cannot cos u not in.. so i went to watch phantom of the opera in my sch library.. very nice like wad u said.. but they never show how the girl die.. then the bf grow so old already but the girls mother look the same age as him... haha.. today is a very boring day.. later still got lab test.. my friend jus now ask me y i look so sian.. then i say tired then he say gf not around also tired.. i say u not around thats y sian... last night dear call me.. i was shock... didn't get to say much cos i was shock.. wanted to ask her how was she... hows her hand... cold a not... and also i wanted to tell her i miss her alot and i love her... but didn't get the chance to say... so i say here.. dear i miss u alot and i love u...
told dear i was going to the airport to fetch her.. but she say her parents will scold me.. i say nvm.. cos i going there to study also...anyway i think i shall add on tonight.. nth much happen yet.. jus that i am very tired.. oh ya... u must come my house and see... i put up so many photos... so now there are 11 of u dear in my room... come and see soon... and also miss u dear...
ok i am now home from sch.. sch was tiring.. my java test was a err.. dunno wad to say about it.. fail... thats enough.. so happy now... wan to noe y ask me... dear i will tell u but i can't write here... for some reason... anyway i prayed for dear for her hand to recover and also that dear will call me tonight.. so i must wait and see if my prayer come true... anyway tml is a long day in sch... and i got another test.. haiz... still the same thing i am going to say.. i really miss u alot... going mad already... anyway see u soon dear... oh ya... last night dream of u again..
ps: love u bam bam... miss u.. be back soon...
Sunday, December 11, 2005 12/11/2005 02:05:00 PMY
ok.. today is sunday... 11/12/05...
last night went for wedding dinner.. very fun.. same tabel with all the coursin then we had fun... then the dinner start at 8+then end at 11+... so long lor... but the food was ok.. and dear duess wad... all my coursin noe about u already... and one of my aunt also noe.. jus told my mum i will be going to the airport and study over night on thurs.. cos fri morning u coming back.. hehe..
today i woke up at 8++ so tired cos last night so late then reach home... went to church.. never slp... then on the way back i talk to my mum about u.. then i think that she is ok with it already.. good... and she also noe i wan to go study over night becos of u.. haha... anyway so now here writing this.. today will be boring... still waiting for u... come back soon.. y can't the day pass faster... last night in the car coming home suddenly miss u badly... then think of the day at the airport with u... haiz... last night same thing again lar... i sat on the bed and jus look at our photo on the wall... keep thinking of u.. and yes last night i dream of u again... like very night also will dream of u... we were at a playground.. can't remember doing wad.. but we were there lar...
ok i am now adding on to my blog i wrote earlier in the day... i spent the whole day playing com.. then went out to buy a new fan cos my house one spoil.. bought paint and a paint brush too... paint the photo frames i bought from ikea.. ( actually not i buy lar cos not i pay..) painted 2 of it black and 1 of it white... then had dinner with my family of 3 and went to tm with my sis.. go tm for wad dear u must be thinking.. haha.. i went to print out photos from that machine... and i think u will scold me for some photo i print cos some is u onli.. haha... maybe cos i miss u too much already so i decided to print out ur pic to put on my wall... anyway now jus got home.. then later i will be putting the photos in the frame and up it will go on the wall... thats my day.. after that i should be slping... which is the worst part of the day cos then when i think of dear the most.. and take a longer time then always to slp... i guess i will dream of her again tonight.. so seens u r in thailand and i am here, the onli way i can see u is in my dreams... so i better get to slp soon so can see u.. hehe... hope to see u soon... i miss u dear...
ps: dear i love u.. i wan my bam bam back.. hehe....
last night went for wedding dinner.. very fun.. same tabel with all the coursin then we had fun... then the dinner start at 8+then end at 11+... so long lor... but the food was ok.. and dear duess wad... all my coursin noe about u already... and one of my aunt also noe.. jus told my mum i will be going to the airport and study over night on thurs.. cos fri morning u coming back.. hehe..
today i woke up at 8++ so tired cos last night so late then reach home... went to church.. never slp... then on the way back i talk to my mum about u.. then i think that she is ok with it already.. good... and she also noe i wan to go study over night becos of u.. haha... anyway so now here writing this.. today will be boring... still waiting for u... come back soon.. y can't the day pass faster... last night in the car coming home suddenly miss u badly... then think of the day at the airport with u... haiz... last night same thing again lar... i sat on the bed and jus look at our photo on the wall... keep thinking of u.. and yes last night i dream of u again... like very night also will dream of u... we were at a playground.. can't remember doing wad.. but we were there lar...
ok i am now adding on to my blog i wrote earlier in the day... i spent the whole day playing com.. then went out to buy a new fan cos my house one spoil.. bought paint and a paint brush too... paint the photo frames i bought from ikea.. ( actually not i buy lar cos not i pay..) painted 2 of it black and 1 of it white... then had dinner with my family of 3 and went to tm with my sis.. go tm for wad dear u must be thinking.. haha.. i went to print out photos from that machine... and i think u will scold me for some photo i print cos some is u onli.. haha... maybe cos i miss u too much already so i decided to print out ur pic to put on my wall... anyway now jus got home.. then later i will be putting the photos in the frame and up it will go on the wall... thats my day.. after that i should be slping... which is the worst part of the day cos then when i think of dear the most.. and take a longer time then always to slp... i guess i will dream of her again tonight.. so seens u r in thailand and i am here, the onli way i can see u is in my dreams... so i better get to slp soon so can see u.. hehe... hope to see u soon... i miss u dear...
ps: dear i love u.. i wan my bam bam back.. hehe....
Saturday, December 10, 2005 12/10/2005 02:29:00 PMY
today is sat.. (10/12/05)..
today is my coursin wedding.. jus cam back from his house... later at night going for the dinner... so i now at home doing this blog... today nth much will happen... cos onli wedding... my coursin saw my phone and saw ur pic.. haha... and i found out she is taller than u... another coursin of my saw our pic on freindster... then she told her mum i got gf... then her mum ask me today... haha... then i say yes have... haha... anyway my gf so pretty.. show off also nvm... can't wait for u to come back.. last night was bad again... couldn't slp... then slp dream that u were back already... and i hug u for so long cos very long nver see u... miss u wad... so hope that u come back soon and i will give u a big long hug....
ps: miss u dear.. wondering how r u over there now.. must be enjoying ar... love u dear....
today is my coursin wedding.. jus cam back from his house... later at night going for the dinner... so i now at home doing this blog... today nth much will happen... cos onli wedding... my coursin saw my phone and saw ur pic.. haha... and i found out she is taller than u... another coursin of my saw our pic on freindster... then she told her mum i got gf... then her mum ask me today... haha... then i say yes have... haha... anyway my gf so pretty.. show off also nvm... can't wait for u to come back.. last night was bad again... couldn't slp... then slp dream that u were back already... and i hug u for so long cos very long nver see u... miss u wad... so hope that u come back soon and i will give u a big long hug....
ps: miss u dear.. wondering how r u over there now.. must be enjoying ar... love u dear....
Friday, December 09, 2005 12/09/2005 09:24:00 PMY
today is friday.... 09/12/05... ( this is to help u keep noe which day wad blog dear..)
i will try to blog everyday from today until u come back... so u will noe how i spent my days without u... =(
ok... last night was bad.. after i left the airport i could not stop think about dear... in dear's father car home i was already thinking of her... then got home try to do other things like use com and all... so not so bad.. but the bad part was trying to slp that time... i look at the time... thinking u must be on the plane now on ur way there... then finally got to slp... and yes slp also dream of u... dream that we were living together already.. haha...
now for today... woke up still feeling very tired... but went to sch.. ended sch at 11 then came home... and i found out something... we borrow the dvd haven return... then i had one.. so today due so i return... then i dunno if u return the other two anot... wanted to go ask but he was not there when i went... so i also dunno how.. have to wait till u r back... anyway went tm for lunch wif my sis.. then went taka to see my mum present.. u lar say cannot buy the cross for u... then i must think so hard of wad to buy... ok then i met christabel.. my good friend... hope u r not jealous... so we went out cos every long never see her already... then since she was free today so i met up wif her.. we shop at bugis.. i bought a bag.. show u when u r back... then she bought cd... all from bugis street... then we went to bugis junction... she bought me a watch.. which i chosse.. that was my chrismas present.. i bought her a purse which she chosse.. thats her christmas present.. funny lar.. but jus to make it something from chirstmas so we did that when we could actually buy for ourselve.. stupid rite.. haha.. anyway i got somethign to tell u... i got ur christmas present already... haha.. sorry ar.. always get so early... haha... think u will buy me one from thailand rite.. haha.. jus kidding... oh ya also bought a book for my sis which she try to find but cannot.. so i found it so i bought... today was fun... how i wish u were with me.. then it will be perfect... so dear pls return soon... i really miss u like crazy... dunno how to slp tonight.. but i think i would jus fall asleep when i get tired... so come back soon ok dear.... i love u...
ps: dear dear dear... i miss u badly when r u coming back... love u...
i will try to blog everyday from today until u come back... so u will noe how i spent my days without u... =(
ok... last night was bad.. after i left the airport i could not stop think about dear... in dear's father car home i was already thinking of her... then got home try to do other things like use com and all... so not so bad.. but the bad part was trying to slp that time... i look at the time... thinking u must be on the plane now on ur way there... then finally got to slp... and yes slp also dream of u... dream that we were living together already.. haha...
now for today... woke up still feeling very tired... but went to sch.. ended sch at 11 then came home... and i found out something... we borrow the dvd haven return... then i had one.. so today due so i return... then i dunno if u return the other two anot... wanted to go ask but he was not there when i went... so i also dunno how.. have to wait till u r back... anyway went tm for lunch wif my sis.. then went taka to see my mum present.. u lar say cannot buy the cross for u... then i must think so hard of wad to buy... ok then i met christabel.. my good friend... hope u r not jealous... so we went out cos every long never see her already... then since she was free today so i met up wif her.. we shop at bugis.. i bought a bag.. show u when u r back... then she bought cd... all from bugis street... then we went to bugis junction... she bought me a watch.. which i chosse.. that was my chrismas present.. i bought her a purse which she chosse.. thats her christmas present.. funny lar.. but jus to make it something from chirstmas so we did that when we could actually buy for ourselve.. stupid rite.. haha.. anyway i got somethign to tell u... i got ur christmas present already... haha.. sorry ar.. always get so early... haha... think u will buy me one from thailand rite.. haha.. jus kidding... oh ya also bought a book for my sis which she try to find but cannot.. so i found it so i bought... today was fun... how i wish u were with me.. then it will be perfect... so dear pls return soon... i really miss u like crazy... dunno how to slp tonight.. but i think i would jus fall asleep when i get tired... so come back soon ok dear.... i love u...
ps: dear dear dear... i miss u badly when r u coming back... love u...
Thursday, December 08, 2005 12/08/2005 02:12:00 PMY
yes yes blogging again..
lets start wif yesterday.. went to sch then went out wif dear to ikea.. so fun ok... on the train take pics then slept on the train until we miss the stop... haha... ikea was fun... it was great... shop for photo frames and all.. saw so many things we wan to buy but no money.. the feeling walking in ikea is like we are going to buy things for our new house like that like we are going to live together... how i hope can lor... anyway we ate cheesecake that dear love so much... then we went off cos i got training... thats about it... oh ya... went home bath ate dinner study then called dear and at the same time i filled the photo frames wif pic of dear and me... my mum saw and went nagging again.... i was like wth... she say keep it but i didn't care so i put it up all on the wall... haha... see it the next time u come...
now lets talk about the day before yesterday... which is also the day of our first month... one month already... we had happy times and some bad times too... got angry a few times.. sorry... and we actually live together for our one month meeting almost everyday... love u dear.... thanks alot for ur present u gave me.. i will wear it everyday....
ok... today is sad day.. dear is leaving today... dun believe its here so fast... anyway hope she comes back soon and i will miss u... later going to airport wif her.. can bear to see her go.. sad sda sad... =( anyway she is going for God so wad can i do.. haha... at least now i got the pics up can see her every morning i wake up.. haha... thats about it...
btw i am in sch writing this...
ps: dear i am going to miss u like crazy...every min of everyday... so come back fast ok... love u dear...
lets start wif yesterday.. went to sch then went out wif dear to ikea.. so fun ok... on the train take pics then slept on the train until we miss the stop... haha... ikea was fun... it was great... shop for photo frames and all.. saw so many things we wan to buy but no money.. the feeling walking in ikea is like we are going to buy things for our new house like that like we are going to live together... how i hope can lor... anyway we ate cheesecake that dear love so much... then we went off cos i got training... thats about it... oh ya... went home bath ate dinner study then called dear and at the same time i filled the photo frames wif pic of dear and me... my mum saw and went nagging again.... i was like wth... she say keep it but i didn't care so i put it up all on the wall... haha... see it the next time u come...
now lets talk about the day before yesterday... which is also the day of our first month... one month already... we had happy times and some bad times too... got angry a few times.. sorry... and we actually live together for our one month meeting almost everyday... love u dear.... thanks alot for ur present u gave me.. i will wear it everyday....
ok... today is sad day.. dear is leaving today... dun believe its here so fast... anyway hope she comes back soon and i will miss u... later going to airport wif her.. can bear to see her go.. sad sda sad... =( anyway she is going for God so wad can i do.. haha... at least now i got the pics up can see her every morning i wake up.. haha... thats about it...
btw i am in sch writing this...
ps: dear i am going to miss u like crazy...every min of everyday... so come back fast ok... love u dear...
Monday, December 05, 2005 12/05/2005 02:11:00 PMY
ok.. i am here to blog.. so pls dun scold me for not blogging already.. i no com at home rite.. see today first day of the week in sch i blog already lor... for the pass two weeks have been meeting dear everyday... which is good i guess... anyway.. today went to sch at 9.. at break at 10.. went to dear house... stayed till 1150.. got out at 12.. reach sch at 1220 for my 12 lec... was late but didn't miss much... sleep during lec.. so boring lor... then after that when to have lunch wif zhi yong and yao wei... so now here wating for my java class to start...
dear dear... u r going to thailand on thursday... will miss u lotz.... dunno how to live here without u for one week +... anyway.. yesterday really enjoyed myself at ur place and a t east coast... can't believe that i went for dinner with ur family... it was great.. and ur dad is super funny... tml is the 6... a very special day... so pls pls pls... be able to make it... i hope won't last min tell me cannot... wed we go to buy frame... then also print the photos out ok.... then at least when u r gone i still have the photos...
oh ya.. the job u have quit lar.. ur mum say quit.. ur dad also say quit.. i also dun like u working that job.. it kinds of like will change a person... like ur leader....
wonder wad u have for me... tml... i think u noe wad i have for u rite.. cos someone go and see wad.. still try to open... ok lar... dun say who the person is.. haha... so my life have been basically been fell with u.. so can say that i live my days jus looking forward to see u.... so see u tml then.. and wed and thurs.. then u will be gone for one week plus... sad.. sad.. sad... =(
ps:love u dear.. will miss u lot when u r gone... hope to see u soon...
dear dear... u r going to thailand on thursday... will miss u lotz.... dunno how to live here without u for one week +... anyway.. yesterday really enjoyed myself at ur place and a t east coast... can't believe that i went for dinner with ur family... it was great.. and ur dad is super funny... tml is the 6... a very special day... so pls pls pls... be able to make it... i hope won't last min tell me cannot... wed we go to buy frame... then also print the photos out ok.... then at least when u r gone i still have the photos...
oh ya.. the job u have quit lar.. ur mum say quit.. ur dad also say quit.. i also dun like u working that job.. it kinds of like will change a person... like ur leader....
wonder wad u have for me... tml... i think u noe wad i have for u rite.. cos someone go and see wad.. still try to open... ok lar... dun say who the person is.. haha... so my life have been basically been fell with u.. so can say that i live my days jus looking forward to see u.... so see u tml then.. and wed and thurs.. then u will be gone for one week plus... sad.. sad.. sad... =(
ps:love u dear.. will miss u lot when u r gone... hope to see u soon...
Thursday, December 01, 2005 12/01/2005 02:43:00 PMY
haiz... boring day in sch... now still in sch using the com to do project and also write blog now lor...
com down so sian.. can't do anything... blog also must do in sch... haiz... yesterday was a good day... never go lab went dear house... then follow her go find job... go until china town... then after that ate and went for match.. match was good.. we win.. and i think my receiving is improving... then went home at the bus stop called dear.. then saw her car pass by.. haha... then after that saw irene at the bus stop also... never talk onli said hi...
today is a bad day... why???? cos today can't meet dear unless i make it possible again lar like always... she today go for dunno wad job training until 6+ then she have to go church... maybe later i will go find her at church cos i also wan to pass my mp3 to her.. got some things inside wan her help me print... hope can... but now should be going for class already.. so can't write much...
ps: bye dear.. happy reading... 6 coming already.. haha.. can't wait... see u soon.. love ya
com down so sian.. can't do anything... blog also must do in sch... haiz... yesterday was a good day... never go lab went dear house... then follow her go find job... go until china town... then after that ate and went for match.. match was good.. we win.. and i think my receiving is improving... then went home at the bus stop called dear.. then saw her car pass by.. haha... then after that saw irene at the bus stop also... never talk onli said hi...
today is a bad day... why???? cos today can't meet dear unless i make it possible again lar like always... she today go for dunno wad job training until 6+ then she have to go church... maybe later i will go find her at church cos i also wan to pass my mp3 to her.. got some things inside wan her help me print... hope can... but now should be going for class already.. so can't write much...
ps: bye dear.. happy reading... 6 coming already.. haha.. can't wait... see u soon.. love ya
Wednesday, November 30, 2005 11/30/2005 09:55:00 AMY
haha.. i am back... finally... i got no time to write much cos i now in sch... my com at home is down.. sad... i write cos someone later keep saying i never write...
ok.. yesterday i went to sch and had a long day until 5 then met dear and send her to church.. went home after that and decided to go back and wait for dear cos i at home sian... haha... left my house at 715.. waited for bus 9.. but very long so walk all the way to simei ite to take 2... wait for so long but no bus.. so i thought that the bus not coming already... so i had to walk all the way to another bus stop along the express way to take 9 to go to tpjc.. then it was raining when i reach there... i pray for the rain to be short and after that the rain became heavy.. and i got wet abit.. then the bus came and i took to cbc... reach there at 830... so i spend 1h45min to reach there.. sad... then had to wait some more at the bus stop... send her home.. then reach her house bus stop rain again.. but after a while stop.. then we walk in and i left.. jus as i left it rain again... then i had to walk all the way to the bus stop in the rain.. reach my house bus stop the rain even more heavy... sad man... so thats my very interesting night yesterday... haha... so i can't really write much.. cos my class starts like now.. and i am late... haha.. will try to write ok...
ps: love u dear.. i will try my best to write... u write too ok... next week u go thailand already.. sad... =(... wad am i going to do man... haiz... see u soon dear... miss ....
ok.. yesterday i went to sch and had a long day until 5 then met dear and send her to church.. went home after that and decided to go back and wait for dear cos i at home sian... haha... left my house at 715.. waited for bus 9.. but very long so walk all the way to simei ite to take 2... wait for so long but no bus.. so i thought that the bus not coming already... so i had to walk all the way to another bus stop along the express way to take 9 to go to tpjc.. then it was raining when i reach there... i pray for the rain to be short and after that the rain became heavy.. and i got wet abit.. then the bus came and i took to cbc... reach there at 830... so i spend 1h45min to reach there.. sad... then had to wait some more at the bus stop... send her home.. then reach her house bus stop rain again.. but after a while stop.. then we walk in and i left.. jus as i left it rain again... then i had to walk all the way to the bus stop in the rain.. reach my house bus stop the rain even more heavy... sad man... so thats my very interesting night yesterday... haha... so i can't really write much.. cos my class starts like now.. and i am late... haha.. will try to write ok...
ps: love u dear.. i will try my best to write... u write too ok... next week u go thailand already.. sad... =(... wad am i going to do man... haiz... see u soon dear... miss ....
Thursday, November 24, 2005 11/24/2005 12:44:00 PMY
hey dear... here to write something for u to read... u also must write and not onli write one word... ok.. and yes i noe now not onli u read my blog already.. so i should not say too much rite... but i am glad that we are ok now... after that scary night.. actually dunno wad to write.. cos now in sch then got time then nth to do.. so write... ask u call me also never call.. haha... at this time u should be on ur way to greg house. hope i spell correctly... so we are meeting tml.. faster ask yy if she going to tp a not tml night.. hope u can come lar... so tml ps ar.. i have already plan to bring all my things to sch and then leave it in the volleyball locker so i dun have to bring so many things go meet u... oh ya... we are going ps rite.. haha.. u should noe y... hehe... yes i am the ____ old man.... haha.. fill in the blanks urself i dun wan others to noe...
this is funny.. my blog seems to be like a letter to u... maybe cos i have no life without u... thats y i guess.. so all my blog is about u.. ok ok...about me now...
today had java lesson... was to create a panel and must put another panel into it.. so they will be together... and i did it all by myself so happy. everyone was like trying and trying but cannot do it.. haha... then had quiz... or should i say test... it was quite ok.. hope can score for it... now having lunch break.. free so write this cos i am all alone... later got my stupid maths class... so boring.. but must go cos i alot of time never go already... so today can't meet u cos u also not free.. i guess i have to learnt to not meet u once in a while.. if not u go thailand i die... thats about it.. will blog again soon..
ps: love u dear...
this is funny.. my blog seems to be like a letter to u... maybe cos i have no life without u... thats y i guess.. so all my blog is about u.. ok ok...about me now...
today had java lesson... was to create a panel and must put another panel into it.. so they will be together... and i did it all by myself so happy. everyone was like trying and trying but cannot do it.. haha... then had quiz... or should i say test... it was quite ok.. hope can score for it... now having lunch break.. free so write this cos i am all alone... later got my stupid maths class... so boring.. but must go cos i alot of time never go already... so today can't meet u cos u also not free.. i guess i have to learnt to not meet u once in a while.. if not u go thailand i die... thats about it.. will blog again soon..
ps: love u dear...
Tuesday, November 22, 2005 11/22/2005 10:07:00 PMY
hahaha.. i am back... jus to lazy to blog... but for someone i will lar... later that person come scold me.. haha... ok.. wad have happen so far. lets just say i am a happy guy... living my dame boring sch life.. but wad keeps me going is one person that i always look forward to see.. now noe her better.. also met her parents a few time.. going her house when her mum is at home is not that scary any more... i love her... so i have to learn to deal with her parents... just now went to her house.. her mum at home... then her mum ask me help her take things down from the top.. haha... she told me her mum gave a funny face... my own mum also always ask me to take things for her from the top... oh ya... her mum ask me go church on the 31 dec... then say wad after that go orchard eat.. haha... i dun mind going lar... if she wans me to go.. anyway i am free also...
read ur blog dear... its bad.. the way u say until ur mum.. thats not good noe.. i noe u dun like her but no need say until like that rite... she is ur mum after all.. i noe wad u going to say.. i side her rite... sometimes u must learn to listen and get it over wif.. like me my mum nag i jus listen... but nth really goes in.. so u noe wad i mean rite... and ya y i at ur house always ask u listen to her is cos i dun wan her to keep shouting at u and all.. get wad i mean... if i make u angry in anyway i am sorry.... i noe i love u and u love me too rite... haha... so i gtg now... my sis seem to be nagging like my mum already... these two ladies in the house ar... haiz... nag and nag.. haha..
love u dear... write again soon.... i hope.. muack...
read ur blog dear... its bad.. the way u say until ur mum.. thats not good noe.. i noe u dun like her but no need say until like that rite... she is ur mum after all.. i noe wad u going to say.. i side her rite... sometimes u must learn to listen and get it over wif.. like me my mum nag i jus listen... but nth really goes in.. so u noe wad i mean rite... and ya y i at ur house always ask u listen to her is cos i dun wan her to keep shouting at u and all.. get wad i mean... if i make u angry in anyway i am sorry.... i noe i love u and u love me too rite... haha... so i gtg now... my sis seem to be nagging like my mum already... these two ladies in the house ar... haiz... nag and nag.. haha..
love u dear... write again soon.... i hope.. muack...
Friday, November 18, 2005 11/18/2005 11:40:00 PMY
yes i noe... i very long never blog rite.. lazy lar.. and with sch and all... where got time... but nvm i blog now ok.. later someone say i never blog then she got blog... hehe... so life have been great since 6 nov.. everything is working out fine.. we are both happy.. i hope.. at least i am... have been meeting her almost everyday... so i dunno wad will i do if she goes thailand.. i may jus keep thinking of her and do nth.. haha... how to live... cannot see still nvm.. but cannot see cannot sms cannot talk on phone... how how how.. tell me how... but our hearts will be connected... things have been going great between two of us.. we love each other... and i treasure her alot... her Os going to be over... she is so happy... i am happy for her too... glad that i have met her parents... and that her mother kinda likes me..haha... lucky..
today when her house in the morning till afternoon.. then i ahd to go sch for the stupid meeting... then i went back to her house again.. cos my things were still there.. her mother was not home... but her father was... then later her mother came back.. so i was there with her whole family... her mum was nice to me... so i am happy.. wonder at the airport can hug u anot... hope can lar... thats about it lar.. love u dear... hope i dun miss u too much.... if u go thailand even worse.. save me...hehe..
msg: love u with all my heart dear... see u soon..
Saturday, November 12, 2005 11/12/2005 09:54:00 PMY
i am bloging again.. cos i can't dun blog.. even bam bam got blog so how can i not blog... today was a good day.. went out wif bam bam.. and then went out wif my mother... saw so many things i wan to buy buy no $$$$.. anyway wanted to cut hair but the lady not there so never cut... now waiting to call princess.. think she is busy.. must be working out... anyway i wan to say that my life have change seens 6 nov this year.. so its 6 day back.. but my life have change for the better... more happy... y more happy.. those who noe me well should noe... dunno then ask me.. but angel sure noe wad it is... so my life now is so much better.. at least i have something to look forward to... not sch lar of cos... and ya jerome keep asking to go play pool... JE save me lar... maybe one day jus go play wif him together lar.. then of cos i will lose lar.. people under 21 singapore team leh... how i can win..
actually nth much to say already...
ps: msg to u... love u very much.. happy to be with u... hope u r happy too... and that this will be the beinging of a long long long long long relationship... love u dear... hope to see u soon...
actually nth much to say already...
ps: msg to u... love u very much.. happy to be with u... hope u r happy too... and that this will be the beinging of a long long long long long relationship... love u dear... hope to see u soon...
Wednesday, November 09, 2005 11/09/2005 10:57:00 AMY
yes i am here to blog again.. so lazy to blog... anyway now i am in TP library... no lesson now.. having my 2 hours break... wanted to watch movie in the library as plan but then the tv under repair... so i cannot watch.. so now here using the com... ok let see today my day will be as follow... after sch at 1 go home.. slack around until 5+ then go for training then go home... wan to meet dear but she say cannot.. anyway she having paper until 3+... so dun think she wan to see me also... dear is having her o level now.. and i have jus started sch.. sch is so boring.. cos i am in different class as my friends.. so i am all alone.. and the sch is so F... that they dun let me take one subject cos they say later i have too many things.. i noe spent 26 hours studying in TP every week... this life is so bored.. then plan to meet dear next fri to go out.. but found out i have to attend a stupid meeting to tell me wad will happen if i fail again... like i dunno wad will happen... anyway i jus dun like sch anymore.. no friends and all.. i now onli go sch to study.. how boring can it get.. then lunch time must look for people to eat wif.... sad rite... if not i will be eating alone... so anyway thats about it...
msg to my dear angel.. love u lotz... miss u too.. and thanks for loving me more each day... i love u too... wo ai ni.. haha... hope to read ur blog soon if u have time to write.... take care dear...
msg to my dear angel.. love u lotz... miss u too.. and thanks for loving me more each day... i love u too... wo ai ni.. haha... hope to read ur blog soon if u have time to write.... take care dear...
Sunday, November 06, 2005 11/06/2005 06:17:00 PMY
today is the 6 of Nov.. its a very special day for me and bam bam... cos today is the day that bam bam accepted me.. and which means are together now.. i am very happy that we finally can be together... bam bam i love u... so today started my day by going to church and then slept in church as always... when tam to eat lunch wif my mum then she went back.. mk was going to meet me but last min he say not going so i was left there all alone.. lucky bam bam was there and i like met her for awhile then she went to study... after that i met her again to send her home... at her house downstair we sat for awhile while she study again.. her Os is tml and i pray that she will be able to do well in all her papers.. and also that she will not tired herself out... i also hope that this will be the beinging of a happy relationship.. and that we will be happy... so today my blog is about me loving bam bam... hope bam bam read this soon.. love ya...
Friday, November 04, 2005 11/04/2005 11:05:00 PMY
yes bloging again... talking to A now.. check my timetable today.. it suck to hell lor,,, i hate it... monday is the worse... got lesson at 9 to 10 then 2 hours break.. then lesson at 12 to 1 then another 2 hours break.. then then 3 to 7... suck man.. then the worse is i dun have any friends in my class.. cos class all change... suck man.. y tp like that.. ok lets talk about my day... woke up at 9 to go A place.. dunno for wad also.. ate pizza and watch tv and talk and slept... then meet my mum at tam... ate lunch... walk about... bought a casing for my hp... when to eat ya kun.. saw leslie... met aaron on the way back.. tania too... then got home.. check out the stupid timetable... then went to meet hua lun at CS to cut his hair.. ask the lady i knew to cut for him.. chat wif her a little... then went to tp... got friendly match wif nyp... we won them 5-0.. so happy cos i played quite well.. happy wif myself.. happy that i am closer to A too... can't wait for Os to be over even i not taking... ok thats about it.. to lazy and tired to type already.. signing off...
Wednesday, November 02, 2005 11/02/2005 10:46:00 PMY
yesterday didn't blog.. so will be added to todays one.. i yesterday woke up at around 11+ had lunch then went with my mum to expo.. wrong thing to do.. waste my time.. then i went to bk at eastpoint to meet A.. she was studying... after she study finish i send her back and we walk from eastpoint to her house.. after that i came home and watch tv.. then at night talk to her until about 12+ then slp till 330 in the morning to watch soccer... slp at 545 again and woke up at 9 today...
today went to A's place... then she had to go meet eher friends so i came home cook maggie mee to eat and then slp again... slp until 5 then wake up.. but head was so pain... got myself out and had to go for training... then heard that A going airport study.. noe she wear sleeveless.. so noe she will be cold... so stop at 201 and took a bus down.. on the bus i change my shirt to my training one.. and gave the the shirt i was wearing to keep her warm... must have been very cold cos i walk into the airport onli so cold.. so i think she will feel worse.. so i was glad that i went... pass her the shirt then went off for training.. took 27 to the long bus stop... then saw 23 go already so i walk to sch.. then raining.. sad.. then the east gate not open.. must walk until main gate... reach training all wet and late.. very late... coach didn't scold me.. thank God man... seem like i most likely playing main 6 already... stress.. never play before... then after training no shirt to change... so dirty and smelly... then when crawing out of sch shirt got all wet.. so worse.. then i went home... on the way home in the bus i think i too smelly no one one to stand near me. haha... too bad for them... ok thats about it.. A i let u noe more on the phone.. ok.. take care A. love ya..
today went to A's place... then she had to go meet eher friends so i came home cook maggie mee to eat and then slp again... slp until 5 then wake up.. but head was so pain... got myself out and had to go for training... then heard that A going airport study.. noe she wear sleeveless.. so noe she will be cold... so stop at 201 and took a bus down.. on the bus i change my shirt to my training one.. and gave the the shirt i was wearing to keep her warm... must have been very cold cos i walk into the airport onli so cold.. so i think she will feel worse.. so i was glad that i went... pass her the shirt then went off for training.. took 27 to the long bus stop... then saw 23 go already so i walk to sch.. then raining.. sad.. then the east gate not open.. must walk until main gate... reach training all wet and late.. very late... coach didn't scold me.. thank God man... seem like i most likely playing main 6 already... stress.. never play before... then after training no shirt to change... so dirty and smelly... then when crawing out of sch shirt got all wet.. so worse.. then i went home... on the way home in the bus i think i too smelly no one one to stand near me. haha... too bad for them... ok thats about it.. A i let u noe more on the phone.. ok.. take care A. love ya..
Monday, October 31, 2005 10/31/2005 11:05:00 PMY
hahahahahahahaha..... HAPPY HALLOWEEN.... hehehehehehehe....
lets see.. today woke up at dunno wad time then go online and talk to M... talk from com to phone.. then soon after that i had lunch and watch my vcd... then jus finsh watching, using the com halfway, my sis come back.. then she shout at me about something so irritaing... so i shout back and after that i left the house... went to meet M and watch her study abit.. then she went to BBTC and i left for jonny house.. played ps2.. so fun.. then jian hao come.. then i play with him.. lose to him one game and won the rest.. one game we even play until 5-4... then we watch the 7 o clock show after that we went for dinner and i left for loyang rise... waited outside the house numbr 215 for a while cos the thing end late.. then send M home... so now using the com.. oh ya.. han yang ask me go clubing but i not interested.. also dunno y... then also amanda ask me go pub... but i also say no... i think i am a good boy haha.. dun go clubing... haha..
hey M.. u got new name.. no more the old one.. this will change soon too... ok thats enough.. going to talk to u now M.. so take care...
Sunday, October 30, 2005 10/30/2005 10:40:00 PMY
hey hey..... i am back... today had a great day... went to church early in the morning and was super tired.. not enough slp... listening to the song that can make me feel like i am flying.. F u noe wad song rite.... look at the pic... k.. after church i went to CS to have lunch wif my mum.. then after that she went home and i stay in TM to wait for mk... played the soccer game.. found out a new way to score.. haha.. i am good... then met mk and brandon... we went to orchard to walk... mk bought a bag.. and brandon bought a quiksilver T-Shirt i chose for him... super nice can.. i wanted to but it too but no money... let me list the thing i wan to but today.. first was the bag i saw.. the nike bag.. black in colour... really like it.. cost of it $99... then when to find mk bag.. found another bag that look like the nike one.. but not so nice and good... cost $38.. see the different in price noe already... ok.. then the t-shirt.. pick two t-shirt for brandon... both i like alot... but brandon bought one so i can't buy the same as him if i have money... anyway the two t-shirt.. the one i like more which is also the one brandon bought cost $69.... the other one that i also like alot cost $59.. so seems like i have taste for expensive things... wan to get a coat too.. the type of formal coat but not say look very formal.. very nice.. but very ex price i have seen so far range from $89 and above.. money money money.. everything need money.. go out need money.. eat need money... stay at home use com watch tv also need money in a way... talk on the phone need money.. everything needs money.. is the world all about money onli... k enough about money.. after brandon bought his shirt we went back.. i went to the airport to meet F... then follow her go to leslie house take her thing.. then send her back... loving her more each day... told her that i may not have alot of time to spent wif her next time not like noe can everyday make way to see her.. cos my sch starting already.. so i still have to be in sch and all... so afeter sending her back i came home... bath had dinner and now i am here... was talking to her jus now online... but she has gone to eat dinner... so i am bloging... oh ya.. forget to say.. i made a new friend today.. his name is jerome... haha.. thanks to F i talk to him by sms... haha... ok... now something that i learnt today... as i was bathing something hit me.. i have been saying i choose the wrong course and all... and how much it suck... but wad hit me was i think that God put me in that course for a reason... so i will accept wad he has done and study in that course.. and instead of complaining i should study harder... if i can... haha... wif my lazy self hard... studying itself is hard enough now asking myself to study harder.. haha... think its possible... dun think so... ok.. thats enough for today...
always having a msg for F....
msg to F begins here.. " hey.. see that u have improve in ur maths.. very happy for u.. ur sci.. phy anything problem can ask me.. i will do my best to help u... ok... i noe my phy not A1 but still can make it.. at least i got a B3 for sci.. haha.. so as i always say.. study hard... haha... last but not least.. love ya... "
end of msg...
Saturday, October 29, 2005 10/29/2005 01:00:00 PMY
haha... i noe F will like this pic alot... rite.... this pic was taken on the bus in america... had nth better to do then so took this pic... haha... anyway... yesterday never blog cos got no time... whole day out... met F in the morning to go somewhere.. thanks for following me F... then went to eat lunch wif her... she when to study after that.. i was wif her but then mk came and we went to play pool so she studied alone... guess i lose to mk again.. but this time 5-4.. so not so bad... then went to find F again... she pass her maths for the first time i should say.. she was so happy.. oh then we had to go for match.. and F left for church... match was fun.. play against mk poly team... we won 3-2... first time i am playing main 6.. knee still hurts but its better already... after match got home and ate dinner... then watch the lovers in paris... on my 3rd disc i called F to talk.. think she not happy wif me cos i watching tv and talk to her... so she said she wanted to slp.. so she went to slp and i stop watching... tried to listen to the luo zhi xiang song (zhi wo cui mian ) a few times just to catch the lyrics but stil not sure wad it is... so woke up this morning and started my day wif a vcd.. lovers in paris of cos... so finish one box today already... left two more box to go... so now i am here bloging... sad that F is not online... most pro she must be at airport studying... work hard ya... enjoy ur Os.. its once in a life time.. haha... thats about it..
msg for F: thanks for being wif me yesterday... and yes u r the first to see my dad... i think he likes u cos he keep smiling to me from the pic. haha...
anyway thats all... bloging off... hear from me soon....
Thursday, October 27, 2005 10/27/2005 10:21:00 PMY
F said this look like me.. does it... maybe if u change the spec colour... but if thats me then i will be kind of cute rite... then i no more donkey but change to chicken.. F is angry wif her dad for not buying dinner... so poor her has to cook noodles... nvm tml we go eat something good ok... wadever u wan... k F... and yes i think my plan for the day was ok... turn out as i plan jus that the meeting wif F was short.. but still worth my trip down... F is so so so so so soooooo nice... tml she is willing to follow me to kovan to do something which i would not like to say... F u should noe y i dun say wad thing... not nice to tell the world rite... i would really like to thank F for being there for me.. and sending me the airmail... love u so much... anyway thats enough of blog.. i have already blog one in the morning... blog tml then... bye to all reading this.. take care.. F tc ya... and yes u will taste my power soon... that is if u wan.. haha.. see u tml...
10/27/2005 11:20:00 AMY
so here i am bloging again.. yesterday did not blog cos i was sick.. really sick.... feel like dying man... now much better.. after a night rest.. and after reading the card from F which was air mail to my house... thanks alot F... love u so much.. it would be better if u stick ur photo on the card.. haha... last night when slping my knee started to hurt badly.. think i really have to go and see a doc... looking at the card now.. really love it man.. its very nice... cos its from someone special.. that will be F... oh F ur blog got so many spelling errors... haha.. u say ur english very good rite.. then y like that... haha.. dunno y like got no mood to blog... k lets see wad i did yesterday... woke up at 11plus was feeling sick already.. but friends birthday so had to meet them... when out of the house at 12 then receive a call saying that meeting time will be later.. those idiots.. always like that always late... went to marina to play billard and after that they play cs while i play psp... psp i so dame cool lor.. but i no money buy.. sad... then after that we sit outsite gv but never watch any movie.. saw diana and alvin.. but i dun think they saw me... alvin look blur when i wave to him... then we walk from marina to bugis.. on the way saw this girl from church... first time she smile at me... haha... at bugis we saw qi ren... talk abit... then we went off.. yellow bought a cap from 77 st.. i never buy anything cos i very poor.. after which we went home cos i was not feeling well and needed to rest and i also wanted to watch my tv show.. thats the end of my day.. today dunno will do wad.. maybe will see the doc about my knee.. then after that maybe will meet F.. hope can lar... that is if i dun fall sick again... that should be all... enough bloging... take care F.. u can't fall sick ar.. got Os.. and yes again i will say study hard... God bless u...
Tuesday, October 25, 2005 10/25/2005 05:45:00 PMY
ok here i am blogging again.. just read finish F blog.. i am really sorry about last night when i went all quiet.. maybe i was thinking too much or maybe its cos i was watching tv.. really sorry... yup i will not let him affect me.. like u say u tml going to study wif him.. i also never say anything already.. ok... i am waiting for the week after Os.. that sunday... u noe wad i mean... anyway today woke up early.. so tired but had to get up and go to ubi for my driving theory test.. and yes i passed... thats great.. cos if i fail F won't talk to me.. after that went to F house for lunch... cook noodles.. cos i no money go out eat.. i am poor i am broke... after eating was in her room when sunddenly we heard the sound of keys... i was very scare that her mum was back which also = to me being dead... but thnak God it was not.. but it was her father.. then F ask me go say hi to her father.. which i didn't wan to but i did... he was quite friendly and said hi back.. and he went into his room and i never see him already... how lucky i am man... after that went out wif her.. took the bus to 201 there then she went to airport to study... should still be studying at this time i guess if she is not talking to her friend... i then went to eastpoint to meet ming kai... we both have no life trying to find people to go out wif and all.. but cannot find.. so we ended up playing pool at eastpoint.. i lose to him 5-3.. sad man... thats becos i very long never play already.. next time i will win him.. haha... then got home and went out again cos my sis wan me to go buy kfc.. then she say now not alot of people so better.. so i bought and she is eating now and i will be eating after i blog finish.... thats about it... take care F and study hard... u can do it believe in urself...
Monday, October 24, 2005 10/24/2005 04:55:00 PMY
woke up at 11 plus today to go online tto talk to F... can't of lame.. talk online halfway then call her and talk on the phone... had her on the phone while i had lunch... after lunch i went back to slp and here i am.. blogging now.. can't believe that i so lazy... slp and slp... wads becoming of me man... anyway think F is still studying at bk at my house there. maybe will drop by to see her.. but not for long cos i got training and i also dun awn to disturb her... i believe that she can make it for Os so dun give up to easy girl... study dunno anything can always ask.. there are so many people around u to help.... thats all for today.. the story of my boring life will be writen again tml... pls stay tune to www.jonbrok.blogspot.com same time and yes same place...
Sunday, October 23, 2005 10/23/2005 01:05:00 PMY
errrmmm... bloging can be fun but it also can be boring.. dunno wad to write.. i am writing this blog wif difficulty cos of my finger that got injured during trainging yesterday.. now can't use my finger at all... anyway wanted to blog yesterday but got home too late cos i went to do feet massage at someone house downstair.. its was dame pain lor... yesterday woke up at 12 plus.. went for training then when to meet my friend... thats my day.. very boring rite.. wad to do... thats my boring life... today went to church.. woke up so early... now feel like slping.. but going airport to study for my driving.. dun think i will be taking my driving lesson after that cos my mum say no money.. so i just have to take the theory first.. then see how.. maybe next time then take again... sian man.. hope i win a car then my mum sure let me learn driving... i love my blog the skin cos of the song.. cool man.. never knew i could make such a nice blog... i must be good at it man.. haha... chris still ask i do myself one ar.. i told her dl then all have already... but also must be smart to dl the rite one wad... if not also no use.. haha... thats about it lar.. maybe i will blog again tonight...
Saturday, October 22, 2005 10/22/2005 12:05:00 PMY
heyhey... guess this is my first time using blog spot. quite funny leh.. y the thing all in chi... my chi is bad.. i need to find a way to make it eng.. help... someone... help me... so wad should i start wif my blog first.. mabe i should talk about my day... or my week... my week had alot of ups and down... when overnight at the airport which was totally fun cos i was wif JE... slept the whole of the next day away but not as good as someone sleep for 18 hours... slp until 12 mid night then call me.. like i no need slp like that.. jus kidding ar.. dun get angry... JE u call me anytime i will also ans one... tried to give JE a few surprise but seems like she is always so smart and noe where am i and wad i am going to do.. not fun one.. today was a stupid day... woke up at 12.. on the com talk to JE until 1 plus... had to get ready to go out to meet jav but i was late in the end... waited wif him at the doc to buy his stupid mc... the doc was so funny.. talk cannot her clearly one.. then like very scary like that.. like wan to cut u open like that.. anyway after that took a cab down to VJC for nth cos found out that Jos thing end at 5 plus... so when to jav house to slack for awhile.. found out JE having tuition....so when to pick her up.. but she saw me and walk away.. so sad... make me wan to cry... so bad lor... i walk all the way there then like that.. so many dogs bark at me leh.. =(.. haha... no lar jus kidding i won't cry... haven cried seens pri sch... btw is this long.. i dunno never use blogspot before.. i think i should end here.. nth much to write as i will be having a boring weekend again... haiz.. someone pls entertain me... or i will die..special msg to JE:study hard for ur Os... dun disapoint me ok... take care...end of msg.. haha..
